The C H A P T E R S

Its been a long time

2010-08-02T04:45:00.002+08:00

haha!!
This week was one enjoyable week for me...

Thursday, celebrate Ja's birthday in 32 bistro, a nice place to have a drink and prices for food are surprisingly reasonable! haha! it was really nice to see the 38 gang after soooo loooong!!! well, for sure, they will always made my day and make me smile :)

Friday, had a small farewell dinner with Mr.Victor, my mkt lecturer in Bangsar, in an english bar called "Dragon", after we can't get a 4 person table in WIP!! WTH!! together with Toh and Helen. No doubt, the environment was really nice, food was not bad.. beer was good.. TEEHEE!!!

Saturday, had family dinner in Farmville in KL near pudu, its a porridge based steamboat concept restaurant. Food was good, all of the aunties and uncles really enjoy it. Price was also surprisingly reasonable..
2nd round! around 10.30pm, went to KEC club to attend Jason's and Jason's dad's karaoke birthday party! It was one hell of a drunken night and singing out loud session!! good to see the almost the whole high school gang was there.. Lots of singing and Lots of liquors!!
did not join the 3rd round and all the batangs! still got the energy to play pool ><""

Sunday, manage to get my ass up to go to work..

HAHA!! that's all for now!! GOOD MORNING!! its 5AM!! and i'm going to sleep!!! HAHAHA!! :)

not, perfect

2010-07-21T04:14:00.000+08:00

i just suddenly love this song.. haha :)

Enjoy!

holidayS!!

2010-06-30T01:25:00.002+08:00

just finish my exam yesterday... Officially starts holiday TODAY!! HAHA!!
actually not much difference thou..
just that no need to burn the midnight oil to prepare for exams... Haiz..
lets go somehwere.. anyone?? PLANS??

HELO!! PPL!!

2010-06-23T03:22:00.007+08:00

it has been a quite a relax semester for me, taking only 3 subjects, because I HAVE TO!! hmm.. quite a busy month for me as well because I've been helping out in organizing the Klang School Superstar 2010 on May and Fete De La Musique 2010 (French Music Carnival). Both events were just ok.. not that bad, not that great.

also! the Fete De La Musique is simultanously held at klang, plaza low yat, the curve and penang at the same day and time! HAHA!! how cool is that heh!!

Monday was my first paper for my finals, and on the day before, I was the MC for FDLM! in klang parade.. cheh.. syok sendiri

me, matthew and victor was the MC for that event, it was really a tiring job as the event start from 12.30pm till 9.30pm.. of course we'll have to be there at 9am.. after the event, clean up session drags the time up to 10.30pm!

Besides that, the lift in klang parade... ALL THE LIFTS!!! were ROSAK!! OMG!!! seriouslly.. even the security guards were shock too.. at last only 1 is working.. and we have to wait like 5 minutes every time we wait for the lift.. ><"" to pindah up and down all the things!

Its was really tiring because i did not sleep on saturday's night because i need to study for monday's paper, sunday was MC-ing the whole day.. Also! i was wearing my mom's heels that i don't know how many freaking inches, that make me feel like when i was wearing it, it like dancing ballet for the whole @%#$ day!! until today i can still feel the numbness!! after i came home around 11.30, still open my eyes will the next day! coz my exam is at 9.30am!!

after exam, play snooker a bit, then at nite gathering with Ju Lin and the rest till 1.30AM, after bath, i terus pengsan onto my bed, and woke up at 4pm, battery fully Charged :)

had a great outing with Ju lin, Eve, Mat, Siva and Rong.. our Malibu Rum nite out! omg! the rum taste so nice!! don feel like drinking alcohol at all, its like drinking coconut flavour drink!!

WTF IS GOING WITH BLOGGER!! I CAN UPLOAD BUT CANNOT CUT AND COPY AND PASTE MY UPLOADED PIC!!

anyhow, shall post up all the pic when i got them!

i miss the outings with the point three's la.. hmmm...

July.. makes me think of Redang :(

then i start missing everyone!!

any outing soon with the 38 gang??!

I'M WAITINGGGGGGGGGG!!!

Ciaoz!!

2010-06-01T01:21:00.001+08:00

hur??
OMG!! Finals COMING!!
GRACEEEE!! STUDYYYYYYYY!!!!

Diary

2010-05-06T03:21:00.003+08:00

now i really realise the importance of a DIARY...
so happen i visited Mich's blog and saw the redang post.. then i started to read back all the posts she had in her blog from March'07 till March'08, and of course our point3 fm blog which is like... has been isolated since duno god knows when..

actually right now i have no pic in my pc, NONE!!!! bcoz my stupid pc was reformat without my knowledge!!! so everything, GONE.
JU!! i need ALL the pics back!! please :)

all the memories flash backs, and i was like a sohai laughing, facing the pc at 3.27AM -__-"

then i read back my own posts starting from the oldest, actually, last time, the way i write is sooooo HORRIBLE! why noone ever tell me!! who cares..

eyes are closing, goodnight world :p

puttttt

2010-05-05T01:13:00.004+08:00

aiyoyo!! I have been "lao-sai-ing" for the past 1 week!! *disgusting* and its not like continuous.. its like one of the most cruel torturing method ever used!!! ITS COMES EVERY ALTERNATE DAYS!!! and its like it suddenly comes so randomly!! AIYOOO!!!
Just imagine i'm driving on the highway with godknows where the hell would i find a petrol station or i'm doing a presentation...
can i be like asking my lecturer or my group mates, "eh, sorry ah, i need to go toilet to pang sai?"
i can't be telling i go pee, because it wont take more than 5 minutes... or of i just tell them i need to go toilet, they will be cursing me for taking that long!

yesterday had a fever, luckily i got DAMN POWER!! antibody!!! FUUHH!!! within 12 hours... MAO MUN TI!!! drug company, pharmacy and clinics and go bancrupt of there's too many POWER ANTIBODY like mine in most of the people weh!! CHEEEEEEEH!! haha!

ok, i feel damn disgusted on the way i'm describing it.. *off*

Well, whole family celebrated Mother's Day on Labour's Day in Saisaki, Japanese Buffet, frankly speaking the quality of the food there drops like nobody's business!!! Its not as good as it does the last time i ate which is like... erm.... 4 years ago.. i think...
But, still, we enjoy our the company of all the cousins and relatives...

COUSINS!!
OOOps! i'm the eldest inside!!
Wahlau eh!!

imagine i can still smile when that 5 years old rascal which weight like around 30kg is stepping on my foot!! With my HEELS!!
but still we lurve him the most ><"

so many assignment to doooooo!! some many things to read up!! so many research have to be done!! ASSIGNMENT DUE AND TEST COMING IN 1 WEEK TIME!!!!!!!! SHIT!!!

Mood!!! pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls come pls comepls come pls come pls come pls come pls come -________-""

2010-04-29T01:19:00.000+08:00

let's see...
i got so many assignment to do.. but i don't know where to start..
i am so hungry, i don't know what to eat..
i got so many things is mind, i don't know what the hell i'm thinking..

the only thing about this week that is worth mention about is...
i was chosen to participate in one of the market research discussion in KL, but when i reach there, so weirdly, they told some kind of lame excuse, no need to participate, but got 3/4 of the money as token of appreciation.. ><"

i was HUR? until now i still don't understand, but still i would have to wait wei wei for 2 hours, coz she was chosen to participate in that discussion... Cape Square, i went there for a stroll, after when she's done, off we go to Sinbad for a GOOOOOOD food and GOOOOOOD shisha!! hehe..

until then, i'm still in the "drunk" mode :(

Its been a loooong time

2010-04-22T02:47:00.000+08:00

yeah! ITS BEEN A LOOOOOONG TIME!!! today had an outing with Kimmy, Judith, Jaye, Mich Oon and Hui San.. Its been a long time since I meet up with them.. These Taylorians are very busy people!! IT IS VERY VERY VERY HARD TO MEET THEM EVEN THOUGH APPOINTMENT HAS BEEN MADE LIKE GAZILLION YEARS AGO!! But in my heart, Mich Lee, Yee Jin, Xinyi and Chee Cheng, all of you are present, I can sense u all!! HAHA!!

I missed the K session, but was able to meet them up at S.Pyramid to catch a movie, Be Human, god damn funny weiiii!! GO WATCH!! haha, singapore movies are always up to the expectations.. Then, Teluggong it was for dinner, SCRUMPTIOUS seafood meal!! till the bill goes up to RM160.. worth it but frankly speaking the standard of the seafood seriouslly dropped a lot!! the sup lala is the only dish i felt satisfying.. Was able to catch up with PART of the gossips, stories and dramas!! HAHAHA!!
will post some pictures up when i got it from Ju.

ME HAPI TODAY :)

Am I doing the right thing? Or I should forget about it?? F*uk!

Awake!

2010-04-20T03:12:00.001+08:00

It is now 2.10am, i'm still definitely still awake..
this insomnia thingi just f*ucking up my life!
hell yeah!! i'm thinking what to do!

This week is my semester break, but actually i wanted to do some revising on my subjects *seriously* and START my assignment... BUT as usual, when the mood is not present... everything gonna be absent :)
MY Philosophy!

This new blogger setting thing is sooooo weird, when i press "ENTER" the thing actually goes up to the previous sentence.. ADUH!! I'm soo a tech-noob! My backache is giving me a horrible time in bed. i think i have to go to the chiropractor..

Lets talk about the weather here in Msia *what a good topic* LOL

the f*cking weather is giving me pimples!! on my face!! on my pimple-less face for the past 20 years!! sorry jaye, no offense.. teehee

the very hoTTTT weather is giving me rashes!!! ARRRGGGHHH!!!!

and, i'm SO DAMN LUCKY!! my air-cond is OUT OF SERVICE!!!!! imagine.. shit! its like sleeping in a oven!! and the weird smell from the drain!! SHUCKS!!!

AIyo! I really need to lose some weight! my tummy is HUGE!! ok.. no more beers for me..
so many things running in my mind..
will be helping up Jonathan with the upcoming Klang Superstar Competition and Fete De La Musique..
Hope it goes well bah!

Today Martin leave Msia for Pakistan.. then Vietnam, all the best to him.. and..
now.. the advisor my my club is gone for i think 4 months, my both my Culinary Arts Club in both college is hanging in the air.. wtF!! i'm so going to be so NUMB on all those matters already ... no point doing just for the sake of doing and for the sake to temporarily "syok-ness"!

All of a sudden, i remembered the korean drama, 1 Litre of Tears, the theme song, Only Human by K, amazing, everytime i listen to it, it touches deep down to my heart.. so EMO!
The drama, my god!! the only drama that can eventually make me cry! I mean in every single episodes!! except the 1st episode.. after that, SHIT! i'm a crying babe!! thnx to Kimmy for the introduction of this drama.

Ohya! i got my debit card from Alliance Bank, and now i'm wondering..
why I apply that card for?
its not like i have so much money and so many things to buy.. Ciu!

2010-04-13T02:01:00.002+08:00

i'm too bored!
but sometimes, i'm confused,
also
somehow i'm too hungry.. i just finish eating half loaf of butterscotch bread.. and 2 hot dogs.. yea..
and
i'm faT!
which means
i need to lose weight
if not
it will result to...
larger size when i'm buying clothes!!!!
OMG!!
This is so random

ok..
jogging? Swimming?? AnyOne?????

how la how la

2010-04-10T21:15:00.002+08:00

updates updates..

erm... nothing to update la..
nothing really that special... except for it was Ju's birthday :) few days ago..

Specially dedicated to our beloved Judith Yuen Yawn Cheng

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JU JU,
"U ARE BORN IN PJ,
"U LOOK LIKE A SOH KIAPPPPP
"AND UUU... ACT LIKE ONE TOO" :)

my daily routine would be.. sleep, eat, class, snooker, eat, sleep..
yea.. practically like this every single day..
expect, i have mid terms and assignment to hand in..
in which as always... not until the last minute, i just don't have the mood to do it..
i even asked myself, what am i living in this world for..

Suddenly! i got the feeling that i got so god damn many things to buy! Feel like shopping!! but haiz.. tak da duit.. macam manaaaaaa...

my car's condition is making me SICK!!
noises everywhere!!
when i'm driving, i can really feel that my 4 door and 4 tires is going to "peel" off!!
the engine part is the worst!! i don't know what the hell is going hay wire!!
ADUI!!!!

on top of that, feel kinda glad and relieve because finally i'm off my probation period, and i'm getting back my loan this semester... fuuuh..
it is seriousllllly!! a R E L I E V E!!

after all i've been through from the past year.. its a big NO NO for anything else except for chilling for this semester and my studies... and hope that this year would sail through nice and smoothly..
i had enough of this college.. just let me quickly finish and get out of this place ASAP!!!

my new college.. HELP @ FRASER in KL...
can't wait to go there, but seriously i still prefer this Klang campus.

thinking of going to a new place.. YES YES..
BUT
thinking of the long hours and far distance traveling.. NO NO
thinking of the cost of transport.. NO NO
thinking of the cost of living.. NO NO
thinking of the staying or traveling.. NO NO
thinking of the money i have to earn to sustain myself.. NO NO NO!!
thinking of waking up in the wee hours of morning.. NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!

there are pro's and con's.. but con's are MOREEEEE!!!
but what to do.. gonna move soon.. just the matter of time.. SHIT!

i wanted to stay there.. the money i earn now.. cannot afford to the rental
i wanted to travel, by car.. HELL NO!!
haven't even mention about the traffics!!! and the petrol!! and the toll!!!
taking the public transport.. it takes me around total at least 4 hours!! to go there and come back.. i will become a living zombie!! especially when taking the public transport during the peak hour... confirm GONE CASE!! TAPAU!!!
is either u got the chance to sit, or u got to stand until u reached your destination..
not to say about the squeezing and the "aroma" of it.. *yuck*!! big time!!

HOW LA HOW LA!!
Hailat already laaaaaaa!!

aiyoh!

2010-03-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

should i cut my hair short again??? or should i keep it long???

TELL ME!!

Picture time!

2010-03-22T22:08:00.009+08:00

Now i realise...
i got TOO many emo post.. haiz..
ok let me update SOME Happy Memories which i got with pics..

Grandmother's 80th Birthday Mass Celebration
Centro, The Palace

Cousins!

Cousins! + Old Women + Old Men
=FULL HOUSE

Judith's Birthday
Ju's MANSION!

POINT 3s!!

Taylors!

KTV session
Centro, Neway

Damn Syok Singing

HUC Ball- HMC Annual Dinner
Sheraton, KL

FUUH!!

Me and Jessie
Although I just know that she's just 1 year elder than me

HICT Marketing & Student Services Department
yeayea.. I'm the photographer

Kim Woon's Place!
Finally we were 'WELCOME' there :)

38s!

Shiau Leng's Birthday

Classmates, Course-mates, College-mates...
Chapalang Mix!

ECU Classmates + Course mates

JaYe's Birthday
Bandar Utama

Damn Pro Posers!!

Joanne and Stephanie in Klang
*MU Match

Michelle Lee's Birthday
Marco's Pizza, PJ

The GANG!!

they should win the Oscars

Our Kimmy is drinking HEINEKEN!
We know she love it :)

Michelle and Yee Jin's departure to Australia
KLIA

I know both of them is missing everyone already
WUAHAHA!!

Wondergirls.. I'm the Manager

Purposely i SMILE :)

PICTURE OF THE YEAR!!
thnx to Ju for the oranges she brought

Last group picture before leaving

HEHEHEHE!! this is forever 38 Yee Jin!
Although she's smiling,
but all of us know,
inside her heart,
she's crying already..
Right? JIN???

Hang Loong's Birthday

SMJK Kwang Hua!

FINALLY!

Cousins Night OUT!!
The Library, Curve

BOOYAH!!

that's all I can remember.. and have pictures with...
JU!! CAN U GIVE ME ALL THE PICTURES!! pls

I hate to disappoint people, but definitely I can say, I wish everything is in my control.

I look to you

2010-03-22T21:41:00.001+08:00

As I lay me down
Heaven hear me now
I’m lost without a cause
After giving it my all

Winter storms have come
And darkened my sun
After all that I’ve been through
Who on earth can I turn to?

I look to you,
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong
I look to you,
I look to you
And when melodies are gone In you I hear a song
I look to you

Have to lose my breath
There's no fighting left
Sinking to rise no more
Searching for that open door

And every road that I've taken
Led to my regret
And I don't know if I'm go'n make it
Nothing to do but lift my head

My levees are broken
My walls are coming down on me
My rain is falling
Defeat is calling
I need you to set me free
Take me far away from the battle
I need you
Shine on me

meaningful.

HighWays

2010-03-17T00:40:00.003+08:00

Reflecting back, it sounds kind of weird, have to say that, or have to put in this way describing, in actuality, there is no words to describe how I feel. it is the mixture of stupidity, naive, stubbornness and... so hard to describe. I don't know what is the right word for it. Nobody knows but me.

All I am facing are all of my own deeds which resulted in today's consequences I'm facing. I have never blame anyone, all I blame was myself and me only. There was never a gun pointed at my head to do all these, I myself chose the way. Having to choose this "The Road Not Taken", it has been a wrong choice I've made in very first beginning. I did not put a barrier, gap or limit to it, instead, i put my everything into it, therefore, I now lost everything I've ever owned. I've been running away from this problem ever since I've realised it will happen, its just the matter of time, trying really hard to figure out, sort it out, solve it.. But I do wish everything was just as easy as just saying it. The fear, worries, denial is there, I have insomnia because of all these.

"Grace, you sure can wan"
"Grace, no problem wan"
"Grace very tough wan, so easily lam meh"
"Grace wor, sure can help u wan"
"Tell Grace, see if she can help you"

Hmph, all these sentence, 1 word, BULLSHIT! nonsense. Don't ever use these sentence on me, I would not feel flattered, I will feel its a mocking.

Today, I lose everything, includes my breathe. As surprise as I said, but I have give my all. All my strength is gone, as I am all alone. The road I've taken, the path I've stepped, the choice I've made, the trust I believe, the efforts I've put in, the people I've CHOSE to believe in, rely on, depend on, totally.. I can say it as a Fairytale but ends in the opposite direction.

Of course, many people will tell me, its just a ups and downs of life, but, have you ever have ur down of life? Do you know how it feels? it ain't easy, more difficult than you can ever imagine, making decisions that will affect your life forever. Now I treasure the phrase of "Prevent if better than cure", truly feel it.

One of Miley Cyrus's song, "The Climb", now I know this song is very meaningful and beautiful. Of course, hope that things will be as easy as you sing the song but sadly, No. You dont know what is waiting on the other side. There is always another mountain, keep the faith, there is always a uphill battle. Keep on moving, keep on climbing.. Its all about THE CLIMB.

Anyhow, life must go on, choice must be made, no matter what.

Regrets, I have. But there is no exemptions. Much more than this, I am going to do it MY WAY.

2010-02-28T22:23:00.002+08:00

Omg! its been like 2 months I have not been posting anything up!!
Haiz, PC broke down for more than 4 months! that's the effect!!

Actually, I got so many things to share, but i just don't know where to start.....
Which one first? Good? Bad?

I am so so so gaining weight wei!! ready to KAM FEI man!!
mayb ask Ju to join me... HEHEHEHE...
just kidding la...

I've been working for the past 1 month, this work SUCKS like SUCKK!

F*! I need a life!

Ciaoz!

2010-01-17T21:47:00.001+08:00

so many things to blog about...
but pc down...

really hope.. year 2010 would be great one..

but.. i know.. the next 2 days would b FANTASTIC!!!!!

2009-12-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

picture shows tons of meaning...

picture speaks a thousand words...

my words..

2009-12-16T20:15:00.003+08:00

茫茫人海相识相遇是缘是梦?
冥冥之中相知相牵是梦是幻？

于是生活中多了一位真诚的朋友

多了一位朋友
少了一份寂寞
多了一份微笑

少了一份孤独
多了一份祝福

少了一份忧愁
多了一份快乐

少了一份虚假
多了一份真诚

有了这份真心祝福
生活便会温馨甜蜜

有了这份真诚祝愿
事业将会一帆风顺

有了这份甜美祝福
身体将会健康长寿

朋友：不要忘了我的祝福！

i can never agree more with mich...
mich says : maturity does not grow with age...
continue by : but it grows in PAIN...
I say: Can never agree more.. *nod nod*

2009-12-15T21:34:00.001+08:00

it starts again.. teach me what to do T.T

2009-12-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

now i do understand why people always said,

"woman always speaks the otherwise from their heart"

yea, whenever i feel down with something personal, i will say "F* it la!" "i don't care la" "not my problem" "y should i be so stupid" "don't bother" "whatever la!"

but actually i do care, and i care a lot.. i feel damn depressed whenever i think about it.. and i keeps appearing on my mind, the more i don't wanna care, the more it flashes back, everything and everywhere, there's memory.. i will just automatically think about it.. and sometimes, i will become so so sensitive...

November 2nd, the most depressed day of my life... the start of a emotion torturing life..

well, i need to really apologize to my mom coz sometimes memories reflects back, i get really really moody, my temper is way OUT! sigh

i need a getaway! but i am in debt, can't afford to go far away, i really really wanted to go to langkawi with Ju and the gang.. i wanna follow richard to pangkor.. i wanna follow ckk to bali.. i wanna go singapore to meet up my cousins.. i wanna go back to redang! but my pocket is severely bleeding already.. and i need a job to pay my fees..

i sleep 12 hours a day, but still i'm very very tired..
smile and laugh is what i used to do everyday, used to do...
every simple thing i do i get satisfaction, i feel happy.. even now i won the snooker game by 40 points, i don't feel anything..

i need n*******e..

2009-12-04T20:02:00.002+08:00

let it be...
let it bee...
let it beeee...
o
let it beeeeee...

speaking word of wisdom..

let it beeeeeeee...

2009-11-28T02:07:00.002+08:00

wake up
bath
eat brunch
watch tv
eat dinner
watch tv
go online
watch tv
read newspaper
eat supper or go mamak
bath
sleep

thats my daily routine for almost 2 weeks.

can anyone be more pathetic than me.

i need a life.

you

2009-11-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

i am so mentally tortured.
no kidding.
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

suddenly i feel like serenading,
i shall name it
"YOU YOU and YOU"

T.T i dearly miss you. in my sleep i dream of you. when i eat i think of you. when i drink i think of you. when i'm alone i think and misses u. every corner i sit i think of u. every laughter i thought of you. everyday i want to be with you. every hour i want to listen to you. every minute i'm worried about you. every second i'm thinking of you. Bits and pieces of my heart belongs to you. My feelings are all of you. My passion is about you. My hobby is loving you. i hate lying to you but sometimes its all for you. i can sacrifise all for you. i can fulfill all you want for you. i want to be there for you, no matter where or when, as long its for you. my brain is all of you. my heart cherish you. my memories are all about you. I live because of you. people ask me to avoid you, i told them "fuck you!". my world spins because of you. my clock ticks because of you. i want to protect you. i want to hold you. i want to keep u safe. i want to keep you warm. i cry because of you. i live because of you. i eat because of you. i drink because of you. i breathe because of you. i smile because of you. i'm sad because of you. i'm tortured because of you. i work because of you. i want to succeed because of you. my love is only towards you. i can die for you. I sworn my love to you. i want to be there for you. because all i want is YOU.

your love is amazing.

you changed me to be a better person. you made me a wise person. you encourge me to be successful. you motivates me to do my best. you teach me to be independent. you loved me which makes my life perfect. you cared for me. you worried about me. but you used me. you make me love you. you made me confused. you made me go mad. but, you did it because of me. you steal my heart. you rob my feelings. you give me strength. you give me hope. you give me faith. you make me strong. you, the one who gives me the will to carry on. but, why are you 'breaking' all of it? why?

I'm all out of love.
I'm so lost without you.
I'm all alone.

2009-11-16T22:02:00.002+08:00

all i want is just to continue my studies and let me finish it..
it that so hard?

move on.

2009-11-12T01:18:00.000+08:00

the pursuit of happiness...
HOW?

truth

2009-11-10T21:55:00.002+08:00

每個人看待事物,都不可能站在絕對客觀公正的立場上,而是或多或少地戴上有色眼鏡,用自己的經驗、好惡和道德標準來進行評判,結果就是——我們看到了假像。

all is left, memories, i shall cherish..
people's judgment always belongs to people..
when the perception is there,
they will believe what they want to believe..
no matter how hard you try to convince..

i will not give up, because i know i have not did anything wrong to any of them. in the end, it is their choice.

when someone do something bad, they even can be very happy and lucky, but god will punish them, maybe not now, its just only matter a of time. they will pay for what they did.

Life has to go on.

2009-11-05T21:52:00.002+08:00

I'm tired.
Mentally tired.
Physically tired.
Really tired.
Tired of fighting.
Tired of "killings".
I give up.
Whoever wants to win, you win.
Whatever, I don't care anymore.
I want to find a place to lean on, sleep peacefully.

Despair.
Why trouble always "defined" me.

I want my life back.

I want my friends back.
got to admit, i miss JMMKJ, i miss Point 3's, a lot a lot

I want to go back to the life I have back in Taylors.

I am in hell.

How am I suppose to focus when all the bullshit going on?

WHAT DO YOU ALL WANT FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IF GOD HAS EYES! HAS EARS!!
THEN LOOOK! AT ME!! LISTEN TO ME!!!
SEE HOW PATHETIC I AM!!
LISTEN HOW SUFFERING I AM!!!
WHAT HAVE I DID WRONG!!
WHY IS ALL THIS HAPPENING TO ME!!
WHY ME!!! WHY!!!!

i must be strong, independent. HELOO!!! i'm a human!! for god sake!! not ROBOT!!!! even robot has a ON OFF switch!
I'm in a WAR, all by myself, alone, what do you expect more from me???!!

i'm so gonna sick soon, having real headache now..
having a sprain neck..
someone... save me

there is up and down in life, obstacle in life,
but its just to "heavy"... for me to bear..

too heavy :..(
I'm out of tears to cry
I surrender.

story

2009-11-04T23:06:00.004+08:00

Below are the words:

what
just for the sake
don't know
why
stupid
confusion
jeopardize
idiot
denial
disappointment
sad
pathetic
affection
confidence
promise
paradise
respect
love
usefulness
capability
appreciation
nothing
blame
worth?
care
concern
silent
lonely
impressed
fail
hope
blank
mountain
climb
trust
sacrifice
advice
forgive
forget
everything
nothing
realize
late?
hatred
anger
disbelief
absence
spare
happy
to loved
to be love
to care
relationship
bullshit
outsider
stranger
want
wish
no one
stars
dust
sarcastic
heavy
hurts
kills
convenience
fame
money
not to be seen
ego
feelings
give up
harm
protect
mean?
dream
you
successful
lie
but
me
feel good
motive
encouragement
important
true
depress
slave
there
me
none
believe
I'm
trouble?
heart
pain
as
knife
stabs
reality
realistic
but
can't
afford
brave
face
again
fake
untrue
tried
mask
cheated
don't matter
money
truth
unbelievable
loyalty
belonged
gap
calculative
sensitive
not shown
always
strong
keen
pretend
sincerely
but
end?
background
ok
too generous
rubbish
useless
worthless
illogical
unexplainable
exploit

i hope what is happening is not true, but is that called self-denial? must there be a wall, gap in between? i think because i'm stubborn enough not to believe. because, its all my fault.

from the words and sentences above, form a story, because it is my story.
tell me if you have form one, if u formed correctly, TGI Friday on me :)

I'm so confused, i don't know what to do, all this while everything i've seen are so untrue, everything i believe are so untrue, everything i wanted to be seems so impossible, i don't know what had happened, i truly can't believe.

maybe i'm still too naive, i thought i'm strong, keen, wise enough, but i'm not. So not. in the end, I'm nothing but just an ordinary college student which is so not focus.

I sacrifise so much, which i always tell myself it is worth anything in the world, but in the end, not only its worthless, its totally useless... i have no expectation, is that wrong?

I want to learn, willing to learn, i thought I was given the chance, again I'm wrong.
I was once very proud of what I've been given, felt so lucky, proud.. the feeling is like.. "OH! FINALLY" but now.. its just another big slap of the face.. and also time to put my head into my ASSHOLE!
Help me!

so ironic :(

less!!

2009-10-13T10:24:00.003+08:00

i received this email from one of my friend..
and i feel it is so damn true!

21st Century...

Our communication - Wireless

Our dress - Topless

Our telephone - Cordless

Our cooking - Fireless

Our youth - Jobless

Our food - Fatless

Our labour - Effortless

Our conduct - Worthless

Our relation - Loveless

Our attitude - Careless

Our feelings - Heartless

Our politics - Shameless

Our education - Valueless

Our follies - Countless

Our arguments - Baseless

Our boss - Brainless

Our Job - Thankless

Our Salary - Very less.!!!

HENG AHH!!

so daMN sick.. arrgggh! :(
i shall curse the FLUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!

argh

2009-10-07T02:29:00.002+08:00

today..
i am so dissapointed, it hurts so much than i can ever imagine..
i just feel like asking people to go to their house than beat the hell out of them until they kneel before me and beg worst than a beggar, then i will ask them to go to toilet drink everyone's pee and bath from the longkang.
than, i will slap their mouth until it bleeds than i will pull out their teeth one by one, one at a time..

so despair, depressed
this is how friends works, this is how they betray u
walk in and out of your life like nobody's business
now only i realise how they value friendship..
sometimes, i really am doing pointless things

i was wrong, and i am wrong but i will not be wrong
i shall make them regret
who the fuck they think they really are..

TRUST is everything,
JEALOUSY destroys everything,
LOVE saves something,
HATE do nothing
LIKE is something
MAD is onething

YOU are nothing
because
I am everything

2009-09-19T13:03:00.002+08:00

i always reminisce.. what my teacher always tell me

"you are doing a good thing, but i doesn't mean people will appreciate it, and in the end, people will think that you're doing a bad thing"

and its true enough..

2009-09-17T15:02:00.002+08:00

ok.. i am now in the "office"..
had done all of my "work"
yea.. all of them went to attend the meeting..
i didn't want to go because i'm wearing SLIPPERS and not wearing even half formal clothes..
i would be damn shy wei...
having butt sit in the chair for 3 hours.. it might worth it if i learn something rather than being so tired and listen to the things which is confidential and got to keep to myself..
cheeez!

back to "college"
omg!! so many assignments to do but i have no mood to do it at all...
yup! i seem to be so hopeless after my very "expensive" lesson last semester..
but i know i know..
discipline.. self-motivation.. initiative.. hardworking.. blah blah..
and my finals is at..
2 papers in october and 1 paper in november..
after that MERDEKA...
ok.. i know its tooooooo early to think about it.. but just think only lar..

don't know why i am so tired la.. BUH!

yesterday i don't know why i would sent a stupid message..
just to convince her to go to the doctor...
in which she is stubborn enough to do that..
i had a shocked of my life seeing her right in front of me choking because she cant swallow her food, suffocating and seeing her tears coming out.. i got STUN there for a few seconds!
everytime i will see her either feeling giddy, heart burn or headache..
see her like that i also feel very sakit hati..
i treat her like my mom, and i don't want anything bad happen to her :(

realize

2009-09-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

Finally, i knew the real meaning and the arts of "keeping to yourself"
today i am so damn depressed of which i don't know what is happening to me..
suddenly i feel that i don't belong anymore..

in reality, everything is so cruel..
when u have something or u got something..
people will just treat you so nice..
when u lost it.. then its the time to realize..

people say,
people come and go,
its a things where it cannot be control.

but for me..
its depends on whether u want it or not..
whether u have the initiative or not..
if u doesn't want to lose it..
u will not..

when discrimination begins..
from there.. u will learn everything..

they said friends are just passer-by..
but i said.. they can be passer-by..
or
u want them to be the ones who will accompany you to walk for the rest of your life :)

i treasure them.. but do they?
*depressed*

brain damage

2009-09-09T22:47:00.003+08:00

well, its been really a loong loong time since i update this blog..
yea, kinda lazy too.. hahaha!

well, my currently situation is..
BAD x10 WORST x100 SUCK x1000 $#@!%#$-UP X100000000.....

ok.. my life now would be --->
college(assigm+bullshit+crap+POLC+sohai lecturer) + --> work(travelling+ thinking of transport) ----> sleep(still thinking) =STRESS + brain damage

its been the longest time i've meet the 38 gang.. didnt have the time to go meet the 38 ppl..
ok.. now i'm asking u all..
"helo.. how are you? :) "

since most of my friends have already left malaysia..
they are all around the world in every corner of this world..
mostly they JAM themselves in australia..
very very very less outing already..
now i think i go huc more than i go subang... maybe thats a good thing..

after my car was taken away..
i can really see the true colours of people..
see it on my own eyes,
of course the truth always hurts, but its better to know now then never right?
i dont know why even though i have known the truth from the beggining, i chose to deny, therefore now i deserve to suffer the consequences...

aiyoo.. tomorrow test,
4 chapters.. and i just started..
wish goodluck to me... hallelujah..
so not gonna sleep tonight..
mahai.. i hate my stupid lecturer wei!! fucking dumb ass!! well, cant blame him.. he has the biggest ass i've ever seen in my whole life..

it has ended before it beguns... when i thought everything is gonna be ok

life has to move on right?

thinking of next year just makes me feel so excited!! hahaha...
shhh.... p&c!! hahaha!!

2009-08-31T16:58:00.002+08:00

actually its been a long time since i update this blog..
i got tons!! of things i want to post up..

Ja Ye's birthday
Ms.Sheila's farewell
Prom Night
Holiday Camp
blah blah blah

haiz.. i'm BORED!! help me!! :(

2009-08-21T22:45:00.002+08:00

yup yup.. its been a loooong time i have not my very blog..
well busy with the same ever damn thing again.. which i swear i'm not gonna be involve already and focus in my studies.. i'm still keeping my words thou

so many things can happen which u will never expect..
haiz.. just don't know where to start and which to end..

well apprently i lost my car.. so every single day.. i would have to wake up at 8 in the morning!! F! no matter wat time is my class.. SHIT! i'm so going crazy!

speechless

2009-08-10T13:36:00.002+08:00

funny as it seems
crazy as i speak
saddening as i complaint
damn fed up as i think
dissapointing as i recall

problems problems problems problems

never ending

i want to tell the truth
but i can't
maybe because of my egoism

i know i am so screwed
i know
i try to find a way out
i am so fucking stress and worn out
always dealing with those PROBLEMS
but who can i share with?
advice is what i need..
only reasonable advice i will follow
but not everyone can give me that

its been a hell for me since i enter this college
everyday,
u have to expect the unexpected
and always have to make sure that you're ready for it

but,
i am really glad that i got to meet really kind people here.
whom i can call my friends.
although all of them are not students,
they are like 5 years, 10 years even 30 years older than me,
they are really like my family.
i can tell everything to them
i can be myself when i am with them
i can tell them the truth without any hesitation
i do not need to tell lie,
or
need to think another story to cover up

i really hope my real family are like them,
all i want is them to be understanding,
can they once think from my shoes?
my face shows that i'm ok
i'm cool,
i'm tak apa apa,
but do you know what i really feels.
for everyone's information,
HELLO!
i am also a HUMAN with FEELINGS!

i have set a goal for myself:-
1) MOVE OUT!
2) MOVE OUT!!
3) MOVE OUT!!!

because i'm so fed up!!!! i want to have my OWN home :(

OUT! *panting*

2009-08-01T01:20:00.003+08:00

can my life be like any other ordinary students?
why is it all happening to me?!
i really got no more strength..

i know its my fault,
but all these LESSONS are too expensive for me,
way too expensive.

i am so tired.

2009-07-27T15:09:00.003+08:00

ahem..
Now, I am in the college, doing nothing, no classes
i woke up so early for nothing..
but i had a wonderful lunch eating my favourite mee hon kueh!! WOO!!
then come back to college.. doing nothing again..

staring at the computer
also don't know what to surf online
i got no idea what am i doing
obviously
i am doing nothing
of course, i will die of boredness someday
or
i will start talking to myself
or
go into depression.. LOL!

haha! and i don't know what the hell am i talking here..

bored.
bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.
bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.bored.

sad. :(

2009-07-19T17:19:00.000+08:00

i am sooooooooooooo booooooooooored :(

tak tauuu!

2009-07-17T15:33:00.002+08:00

funny as i recall.. but now i am so blurr... and very confused!
yet! i still cant decide!
so many things i hear.. so many advice i've listen to...
but neither do my brain nor my heart is processing it..

but i think they are right..
i need to do something... with my F! life..

sometimes they feel its wrong.. but i cant feel it..
thou when they tell me i felt a bit true..
dunooo laH!

there are good things that people talk about..
also there are bad things that people mention about..
whom i believe it doesnt matter..
because in the end.. i am the one upon making that decision..

but.. i still i don't know what i want :(

FLYyy AWAYyy

2009-07-09T23:17:00.003+08:00

AISEH!!! why is everyone FLYYYing AWAYYYYY!!!!*crying*
this one that one another one sumore next one...*crying*
super damn heartbroken!*crying*
i hate the feeling of separations! *bang the wall!**crying*
yup! the reaction of the picture of the turtle above is what i am feeling now..*crying*
AIYOOOOOOOO!! ARRRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!! WTF!*crying*

ok..
for this week..
first, Mic left for Australia-melbourne on tuesday *sobs* *crying*
second, Sufyian and Mizan leaving to Dubai*crying*
third, Cheng leaving to Australia-adelaide *crying*

AFTER THAT!
now everyone got holidays! all BALIK kampung!! for around a month!*crying*

THEN!
Eugene going to US*crying*
Jason going to Australia-adelaide*crying*
Joe going to US*crying*
Hua Hong going to US*crying*

THEN!
WHO'S NEXT! HAH! MALAYSIA NOT GOOOOD MEH!!*crying*
ok.. me very understanding people.. GO! GO! GO! GO!! GO!!!!!*crying*
FASTER GO!!!*crying*
REMEMBER! to come back la!*crying*
BUT! ALSO! don't come back if u got swine flu! :)*crying*

OF COURSE...

i would sincerely wish all of u all to have a great journey there! to which ever country la*sobs**crying*
all the best in your studies... and remember to study eh! *crying*
ohya.. eat more vitamins to boost up your antibodi! swine flu! *crying*
TAKE CARE!*crying*

I WILL U ALL EVERYDAY EXCEPT WEEKENDS.. my brain needs to rest right?*crying*

KUAK! sooooory i can't send u off that day because...*crying*
yea.. i don't want to cry in front of you!! but i was crying already when i called u and before i went to sleep.. serious..*crying*
i was very depressed that day... reallly saddd..*crying*

ok.. *crying*
BYE BYE! *crying*
SOBS SOBS SOBS! *crying*

*i'm still crying*
*depressed*

BWAi my fren!

2009-07-05T23:21:00.003+08:00

its been a long time since we sing k..

and finally unisa-ian had finish their exams!

hmm.. of course the gang has really change... last time we really had a blast!

haiz.. now quite a few of them are leaving malaysia to furthur their studies in australia :(

well... goodluck to all of them.. and I shall miss u all...

mayb everyday except weekends.. LOLS! haha!!

OUT!

2009-07-04T00:25:00.003+08:00

ok.. this is the web video which JU and JIN having fun with!
told ya!! i recorded!
HAHAHA!! they are so lovable!! :)

2009-07-01T23:26:00.002+08:00

omg!! i am broke! very the pok eh...
omg!! so many of my friends are leaving malaysia to furthur their studies!
omg!! i'm having holidays and i feel so damn bored!!
omg!! the weather is sooo damn hot! LOLs!

ok.. i am REALLY bored!
anyone wants to go out for a drink or sumthing?? ><"

no matter

2009-06-30T23:01:00.005+08:00

questions just filled the air...
no matter how close you are to a person, you will never know what are they thinking..
no matter how many people you know,in the end, you are still alone..
no matter how much sincerity you gave, if it is not appreciated,it will still be a disaster..
no matter how much effort u put in, if it is not recognize, it will be a waste..
no matter how good you treat a person, if a person don't appreciate it, in the end it will be nothing..
no matter how people look at you, the most important thing is how you look at yourself..
no matter how u look at youself, in the end what others look at you is most important..
no matter how important is other's perception towards you, the person u cared the most, their perception makes the changes..
no matter how many goodwill you've shown, people might have think otherwise..

a mentor tell me

"you will have to make some changes in your life,
think carefully especially if it means giving up a lover or a person u
cared for another"
:/

MAMA's "21st" birthday

2009-06-20T19:06:00.009+08:00

yup.. supposedly me and eugene plan to surprise her on her birthday..
manatau... haiz.. canot la.. she's one lady with full of plans.. lols!
not only that.. i can't book a reservation because the restaurant dont provide the service and we have to wait around 40 minutes for a table... ><" ok.. this is the 1st time i fail to come out with a surprise party and fail so miserably! anyways.. all of us were happy especially Ms.Katherine... Happy Birthday :) we went Chili's Bangsar.. those attended were Me, Owais, Lynda, Martyn, Mr.Victor, Eugene, Cheryl, Eric and Jonathan.. of course Ms.Katherine-the birthday LADY!

all i can say is.. she is a very nice, kind and wonderful lady. i am really lucky to get to know her in person. although she always get into trouble helping people but she never gave up. yea, she's a GEM! like people who knew her always say.. wishing her always be healthy and fit and of course to stay young and beautiful as always...

lovely cake rit!!! haha!! i bought it! haha!! syok sendiri :P

haha! love to see the smile on her face

"when she is happy, so does everyone"

presents time!

hmm.. yea.. my exams is OVER!
but i dont feel whether its something very happy or a relieve...
its just nothing...
haha.. i remember the point three time...
it was just fantastic... everytime after exam.. its like really merdeka!
go watch movie la.. sing K la... shopping la... club la... haha! i am really laughing out loud now while thinking.. i guess.. memories are the best present of all :)

now.. people and all of the things here are just different..

i'm tired, but i couldn't sleep
i'm hungry, but i got no appetite to eat
i'm worried, but i don't have the enthusiasm to CHIONG ah..
i'm bored, but i don't know what to do
i want to do something, but i don't know what to do..

just kill me! buh,...

2009-06-14T19:43:00.002+08:00

omg!! final exams in less than 48 hours...
i am sooo not ready for the exam!
the fear of flunking the papers is here!!
but the mood for me to keep studying in not here!!
arrrghhh!!!
help meeeeeeee!!!

I MISS 2007!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-10T23:04:00.004+08:00

just now, i suddenly miss point three so damn muchhh!!
some of my classmates are PATHETIC!!! now i feel irritated!!
errrghhh!

hmm.. sometimes i feel like closing my eyes and don care about what is happening...
i want to be in my own world like how cheng always do...
haiz.. just cant do it.. can someone slap me and wake me up!
lols..
my english very cha meh??!

2009-06-09T00:23:00.004+08:00

have u ever look into the mirror and ask yourself, "who are you, what are you doing".

if i was given a chance to emend things, i would say 'no' because i have not regretted on what I've did and faced.

who can 'colour' me? because now only i realize, i really suck in colouring :(

listening to- everything- by lifehouse

random.

KLIA, bye shamroz

2009-06-02T22:04:00.007+08:00

ok..
it was THE DAY for shamroz to say goodbye to malaysia and hello dubai..
we miss him already..

shamroz, me and mr.victor

In the airport

shamroz and Ms.Katherine
(i miss burger king tooo!)

oxygen session :)
left: martin, eugene, owais, lynda, sufyian

checkinnnnggg in

group picture before CIAO!
ohh.. shamroz is about to cry
.
.
.
.
.
crying session
.
.
.
hugging session
.
.
.
more hugging
.
.
.
saying 'bye bye' session.
.
.
..
then

.
.
.
.
.
bye *sobs*

yesterday i went Penang along with Ms.Katherine and Puan Aini...
aiyo.. makan and makan and makan.. really bloated man.. imagine if we go stay over.. i will be really putting on weight man! haha! but it was fun.. and 1 thing bad is.. i cant get enough 'oxygen', sumore they dont like it.. when i'm back in klang sitting in the mamak with ann and jason.. i just have it continuosly.. god! i have to stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mayb next year's resolution*wink*

...............good time is about to end...........................

here come the problemss
.
.
.

i really thought my ptptn issue are all sorted out..
but! its not :(
the completion of foundation cert is giving me a headache...
i did not finish my foundation in taylors.. then i did my last subject in hict..
the NOW!
both sides cant give me the cert..

if i cant get the cert.. i cant get my ptptn loan...
if i cant get my ptptn loan... i cant get my money..
if i cant get my money... i am soooooo dead!

why is so many stupid things is happening to meeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
one after another!!
damnnnn! sohai!! arrgh!!

Tarbush, Sunway Pyramid

2009-05-28T22:51:00.007+08:00

wooo... there is so much thing happening.. and i dont know where to starttt....
hmm..

WELL... starting with our dinner in Tarbush, Sunway Pyramid..also a farewell dinner to shamroz before he go back to Dubai, with authentic middle eastern food.. oo.. the food taste gooooood...

we really have a good time..
me, katherine, eugene, victor, owais, lynda, martin, sufyian, mizan, francis, eric and shamroz!

the 2 "drug" addicts
martin and sufyian

the environment is good

fuuuh.. mizan

lynda is having a good timee

all of us :)

eric, mizan and owais

oh god! see how much shamroz enjoy his sisha!

the star of the night

sufyian and eugene

martin, shamroz and lynda

from right: kathrine and victor

aiyo.. victor.. also one hell of a funny fellow

well, we really enjoy the food there..

also, last week, we had a economics seminar in HUC damansara,
the talk was sooo bored!!
yea.... i slept almost the whole talk...
then we go visit kath's new office! its way smaller than her old one but comfortable..

haiz, so many things happen till i dont know how to describe... lols
all i can say is i'm STUCKed!

mahai.. y all this things happen to me..
just let me study and get my ass off to work field!
=(

sigh

2009-05-19T23:48:00.003+08:00

today we had a chat...
disappointment on mr.victor towards my slumberness is making me very very stress..
i respect him a lot.. and i dont want to disappoint him..
just that.. haiz
i wanted to win of course..
but..
the feeling is just not there...
if i lose.. i know i will disappoint a lot of people.. after of all what i've did.. i know i shouldn't give up but... *sigh*

when ppl get tired.. they'll just go home and rest.. and do whatever they want to relax
BUT
i just cant find peace in my own bladdy house..
i just dont call that my home.. i just call that a place whre i sleep..
its damn irritating and annoying when do this also canot do that also canot..
people getting old are getting crazier.. fucking hate their attitude..
i just wanna do.. give him a big slap of the face and tell him
"mahai! u old man! i don give a fuck on what u wanna do.. u dont touch me i dont touch u.. now u will got a little bit respect for u and don lose it.. if u're too free and want to control things.. go get a dog!"

i think i need a hotel
zzz

GOD! i need to go to motivation camp ><"

i'm so tired but i cant sleep
i'm so worn out but i look so fresh
i'm so fed up but i still go on
i'm so close to winning but i nearly gave up
i'm so close to going crazy but still i'm very normal
i'm so close to come to fight but i'm in control
i'm so wanna bash them up but i know i cant do that
i'm so wanna sleep but i my eyes cant close
i'm so wanna shut down my brain but it just keep going
i'm so sick with them but still i have to bear with it
i'm so wanna puke but nothing is coming out
i'm so willing to sacrifice but dont know whether its worth it
i'm so going to let everything go but i know its impossible for me to do it
i'm so close to victory but i will only know the results in less than 24 hours ><""

SOMETHING!

2009-05-18T21:05:00.003+08:00

last week, everything assignment was passed up...
but that is no sign of relieve to me because all this while, i've been busy with other things, got to admit that i have somehow neglected my studies..

i really miss those time where me and my friends are always together doing all sort of things.. even just yum cha session but we already have a great time..
things change.. people change.. environment change.. friends change.. love ones change.. even the closest to you change..everything change

if u're up to date on my matters.. then u should know i'm currently running for the president for student council..
of course, in the beginning, sure la beria-ia, but then, some problems begin to settle down and finally i began reflecting and thinking of all those things had happen..
i did ask myself - "why are u doing all these? just for the sake of filling your 'empty spaces'? do people appreciate what you do? are u a fool doing all these? changes, yes, we need to change but how much can i do in such a college? a leader, am i still capable of doing it? sometimes i feel its better for me to just follow orders, kissing my boss's ass and climb up the ladder than wanted to do something where i must protect myself from being 'killed' every single day.

it aint easy for me to reach 'here' and 'now'.. also now i cant and cannot afford to turn back.. i cant just keep quiet because i know by doing that the 'assasins' can easily get their job done..
sometimes i feel like giving up with the 'i don know and i don care' attitude, but i just cant do it..
some matters, i am so personally attach till i forget i'm a student! for god sakes!

i do have experience, no matter how much i do, how much i sacrifice, how much time i've put on, how much efforts i put in, still i cant change THE thing..

well, after so much things, i really learn a lot of things.. the experience is remarkable, i've meet the "big" people, also i've meet capable and amazing people.. not only nice but.. i also duno how to say.. i would say its a blessing from god to let me know those people..
on the other hand, i've meet terrible people.. seriously horrible.. no words can describe how typical stupid and idiotic! they are so self-centered till even a passerby would spit on them when they walk by.. thats life..

sometimes i also feel very very tired.. my life just black and white...if not about this.. then is about that.. just a or b.. i feel so sick with it.. i go to college, go class, lepak at mkt, have lunch, go lim teh.. then go dinner with the rest.. go home, sleep.. then i repeat the same thing for the next 1864638368 days..nothing productive.. i need a LIFE man..

what i feel now is.. there is SOMETHING missing.. but i dont know what is that... haiz

i went to HUC today with kazi and shafaraz to send her things to ms.kath .. omg! her room has shrink to just a quarter from her room here! but, there is more peaceful and she's loving it.. we've miss her presence here though... then always we'll go either makan or drink.. supposingly she follow us back to klang manatau boss panggil.. haha.. we had a good time in the car and the front bumper coming out.. and also helped to remove the furniture s with the stacks of files whre the chair has been the joke of the day.. LOLS!
so we drop eugene off and balik..
yea.. this is the only thing i did can be defined as "productive" today ><"

GOD HELP ME! *emo*
GOD BLESS ME! *faint*

2009-05-11T22:20:00.002+08:00

tired..

never thought people can be so unpredictable
well, at least better to know now than never..
i've learn alot..
thanks to those typical people..
sometimes..
i am so tired..
but i have never regretted to be part of it..

2009-05-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

i'm missing someone.. but i don't know who is the one..
haha!! *random*

DAORAE, Mont Kiara

2009-05-07T21:10:00.003+08:00

my family and relatives went to have to korean BBQ dinner in mont kiara.. DAORAE..
yea.. so random...
so... we went.. yes...
the kids were so excited about this place is famous because popular korean singers came here to have dinner before such as... DBSK, Rain.. and etc...
they were damn excited! ><"

*cut* pictures time

the environment was nice

this is THE BEST thing to eat!

yups... we met Lee Chong Wei.. the world No.1 badminton player...

the orang tuaS!! haha!! din know my mom was such a poser ><""""

my bro, wen and ni

???

omg!! y is why the hell is everything is happening in such a badddddd timing!!
aiyoooooooo!!!!
tao tia la!! ADUHAIIIIIIIII!!!!

gosh this week and next week.. all my assignments is gonna due..
at the same time!
student council campaign is going on! i cant afford to lose!!!

then, i'm having my finals at the first week of JUNE!!
oMGGGG!! fcuk laaaaaaaa!!!
i need to start studying, doing assignments, run for the president, prepare my team, campaigning, preparing my speech, BES presentation, run the council, and run one event!!
luckily a few things before that i've done...
plz hail my aSS!!!

i'm going SOT!!!!!!!!!!!!

but..
everytime i'm at college...
i know i got a lot of thing to do...
but..
at the end..
i still do nothing..
seriouslly..
even i'm in college at college until like 7 or 8pm...
I NEED THE ADRENALIN!!!!!!!!!
GIVE ME THE BLADDY DARN "KAN CHIONG-NESS!!!!!"
*SHIT*

ECU lunch

2009-05-04T23:54:00.006+08:00

the ECU students had lunch with Ms.Katherine and Mr.Victor last week...
we wanted to treat them a meal because they have helped us so much...
as a sign of appreciation, i think thats what students can do..
we had our lunch at Mun Siang Lou.. the food was not bad..

Then, we had a little performance since in her room we had guitar and piano.. haha!!

Ruby solo!

Matthew solo!

Danny solo!

YAY!

haiz.. why dont things just come in a ways thats predicted?
tired..

2009-05-02T18:50:00.002+08:00

i was totally laughing at myself when i was doing it...
and after i do it..
seriously, i've got no idea what the hell am i thinking and doing...
u can say me mou liu,
u can say i'm super free,
u can say i'm damn lame...
but still...
i think its worth doing it!
hahahha!!!

all HICT STUDENTS! or HELP students!
COME JOIN!
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=76126994434&ref=mf

i'm still laughing... hahaha!!!
i cant upload pictures!!! omg!! what the hell is happening to blogger laaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

Sabah, Jan-2009

2009-04-27T02:32:00.007+08:00

haha!!
i know its kinda weird as why am i posting this after so long...
because..
now only i realise i havent post it... ><"
haha!! anyway..
me and alex went to Jaye's hometown to find her..
*she always grumbling that we always said wanna go visit her in sabah but ffk, so now.. off we go!*
it was really nice of her gang to accompany us for 5 days..
and also need to really Ja's parents to provide such good hospitality for the week when i'm staying at her place...
also to tzun's parents for the scrumptious seafood feast..
apparently 5 days passed very fast.. its like "wooosh"!!
visited a lot of places.. ate a lot of their local delights.. its was GOOD.. espeacially the seafoods..
well.. i would go back to visit again*serious*....

hehe.. i cant remember well on which day we went to which place...
but! i remembered where we go...
these are the pics took from hing's camera.. still havent got the others ><"
ok.. see the pics..

went to crocodile farm

this was in sepilok where we went to see the orang utans!
the jungle is really well preserved..

this was the canopy for bird watching..
the nature environment there is really fantastic!

this the the bridge where we nearly fell into the river..

then we had Karaoke session

the next day, we had a high tea in Sabah Hotel..
the orange cheese cake was good *if i'm not wrong"

at nite we hang out at one of the nice cafe in one of the top building
the environment was good..
THEN!!!!!!!!
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.
.
of course i remember..
poooooooor Ja..
had a punture tyre...
and
had a sprain leg!!
adui!

in the lift

then the next morning,
went to the market..
buy watever that is necessary..
dinner time..
"Steamboat and Grill time" in ja's place

omg! these prawns are HUGE! and FRESH!
seriouslly 1 is more than enough!

they really loVe this game for sure

hing,me,alex,ja, adeline,siah,ken,yap and timothy

so the last day before we leave..

went to one of the temple 1st as it was still early

Ja's parents...
wuahahah!!
LOOK!!! at Ja's feeeeeet!!
i din know wearing a "sock" with slippers was so YENG!!!
wuahaaaaaaaaahhh!! *jk jk*

group pic before we leave
hahha.. see the pretty couple..
one wearing white "sock"
one wearing white shoe...
super cute one!

Jaye, Hing and Me

the trip was very good as i can explain..
those who said sandakan was boring.. *SLAP UR MOUTH...NOW!!!*
kkk...
i'll plan the next trip... hahaha!!

OmG! its 3.55am!! i still cant sleeeeeeeeeeeep!!!
adddduhhh!!!
well.. i'm not the only one.. Mel also! wuahaha!!

I WANT MY CARRRRRRRR!!!
I WANT MY MONEYYYYYYYYYYY!!!
ARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH GOD.. i need to start my ASS!!ignment already!! so ASS!!
i need to start THAK CHEK oredi!!!!
god bless meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

buh-bye!

ARRRRGGGGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-25T19:17:00.003+08:00

haiz... last thursday...
i was suppose to go amcorp to hand in my reports and slips...
manatau!! BANGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! wtFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!
the stupid car in front of my car make a u-turn in the middle of highway!!
the car infront of my car JAM-BREAK!!!
WHAM!! i "smooch" the car in front... harrrddd enoughhh!!! cb!

was suppose to go back in an hour time to attend class and had a meeting later on...
and this stupid thing happen!
u know what.. thursday bang car.. and friday is my big day where i'll meet my chairman again..
really dont know whether its a good or bad sign!

fast forward to friday...
was able to meet datuk paul...
the good thing is he accepts our proposal.. and the bad thing is.. ms.kat still have to leave hict..
although fizically she'll still be here.. but it just gonna be very different..
of course she is a very good boss.. she's the "mama" to her staff and they also love her very much.. so eventually all of them will follow her leave also...
not too good.. and not too bad... haiz
of course its kinda sad... i memang hate separation.. but this is life..
nothing stays forever...
hope the yap fellow don give us any uneccesary problems..

buuuhhh... i am without car for almost a week!!! omg!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!

2009-04-22T21:05:00.003+08:00

friday friday friday...
means 2 more days to go...
less than 48 hours..
i'll have to make sure everything goes perfectly..
it will be THE day...
seriously praying to God...
let it be good.. then all of us will be good..

oooohhhhh!!!
suddenly...
i miss my looooooong hair!!!
*sobs*

Judith's 20th!!

2009-04-20T20:22:00.004+08:00

last saturday, it was judith's belated birthday party in her small jungle crib in puchong!! hahah!!
geez.. i also dont know u-turn how many times to get to her place.. damn mang!! anyway.. we still reach there safely..
the birthday was simple.. but enjoyable..

JUDITH YUEN'S 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!

Jaye, judith, kim woon, alex, xinyi and me
in ju's room..
luckily the teddy bear no "chow chow"
hahaha!! joking joking..

wooh!

the lovely couple with ju

the AIESEC-ers!

ju's assunta friends!
kim woon is just all over these girls!
oops!

@-ers!

lucky draw session

anticipating crowds

aiyoo... damn syok posing

taylorss!!! point threee!!!

the point 3s!! although a lot of them cant make it

as usual..
it will take around half to 1 hour to say "bye bye"

before we leave.. take 1

when we want to leave...take 2!
"american next top model"
><"""

then only all of them "rela hati" go home..zzz

well.. when 2 person tries to control the situation..
sure that will be arguements..
i'm trying very hard no to cause any conflict as to the situation now..
this thing shouldnt be happening..
now i know that patience is very important..
as to now.. i will try very hard to make it happen and goes smoothly as planned.
the 1st ever thing is i shouldnt have involved too many people..
which i meant by i have involved this one.. and the other one involved another one..
somtimes i try very hard not to offend people.. but when it goes over the line.. i will explode!
as in.. what i am thing doesnt mean every people will agree with it..
moreover, i've involved people who have "stand"
i'm sure i'm 100% loyal to who ever i'm siding to..
but i cant make sure that the people thats involved will also be that loyal..
and in time to come.. will that person come against me?
sometimes i dont understand what are they thinking.. but still i've been keeping low...
*cross finger* hope everything goes well
because in the future.. we have to work togather..
if something goes wrong.. i serioully cant imagine what will happen..

2009-04-18T16:02:00.002+08:00

yesterday... the most ridiculous thing happen to my college.. and the 1st time i've seen in my life..
my lecturer was accused of having "relationship" with the students...
it was on the flier! wtf! with 12 female students picture in the picture taken from the facebook! wtf! of course they did not know about that!

its on every car in the carpark and around college!! WTFFFFFF!!!
of course, he's being framed..

looks like these I/P issue is getting more and more personal...
interesting..

point blank!

2009-04-16T21:01:00.002+08:00

hmm.. this week is another long week...
next week will the drama week.. if the chairman don ffk
last week was the war week..
for the weeks to come.. i'll b the "anticipating" week

geezzz.. i got so many assignments to do but dont know why i feel so "light" as if i got nothing to do... oh noooooo
now.. when i go to class... feels like damn bored man...
*sobs* i miss my gang in taylors *sobs sobs*
everyday i would b anticipated to go class... but now.. u gimme money also i don feel like going.. geeezz.. but thats history...

i will TURN HICT AROUND!! thats what i'm gonna do next if everything goes well...
with enough support.. tying all the strings!!
hict will be the new college which people wants to be in!!!
*buh! so darn motivated*

ohh! i lost weight!! all hail me!! hahaha!!
geez. i lost my apetite after i cant fit in one of my newly bought clothes.. arrrghh!! *malu*

events events events!! here i coooooooommmeee!!
seriouslly i din know that formally a reliable commitee would be so hard...
so.. next week will also be the campaigning week! VOTE FOR ME!! *wink*
after i successfully take over student council.. i will make sure thats a 360 degrees turn in the collge.. i wil confirm that..

oh ya! thnx ms.Kat for the penang cookies she bought for us!! woo.. feel the love man when u bite the biscuit! hahah!! *lame*

gtg!! bwai!! :)

2009-04-11T22:05:00.001+08:00

i cant explain more... but do wish me luck
*cross finger*

satisfying day :)

2009-04-09T20:32:00.002+08:00

today at 12pm.. all the 11 students went to meet up with Dato paul chan...
in the end.. we are very happy about everything!!
finally all our concerns were answered!!
we are very very very thankful to dato as without him.. we will still in hot water...
thank you a million times for putting trust on us..
today i took the "sniper" and shot all those should be punished with capital punishment..
hmm.. now i'm rather busy nowadays with all those activities coming on..

i seriouslly pray to god.. plz don transfer her out.. if not.. we'll be in deep shit..
the only person that is capable is just her..
we really cannot afford to lose her... hope cM will do the right decision..

haiz.. tomorrow will be a long day..
wish me luck people..
ciao!

=/

2009-04-08T22:07:00.002+08:00

its been 5 months already..
few weeks ago.. finally the college gave in.. and agreed to sort out things in our way but still with conditions.. therefore.. i totally object with it..
i've been asking the students to stay united no matter as a sign of strength no matter how the other people might manipulate us...
tomorrow will be one of the most important day to me and my fellow coursemates because will be meeting the chairman...we have to really grab the chance to spit out everything that we are not happy about.. must be short, brief but must be the complete picture of everything.. if i were the one talking.. of course no problem la.. but now.. everyone has to talk.. and i really need to guide them one by one so that there will be no errors...

well, besides that, there is also other issue going on.. its just hard to type out in words..
but blehhh... damn tired already with all these..
but in a other way....
i learn a lot of things... in real life! it is happening now! i am learning while it is happening.. and that is a advantage on a students while still studying..
i can see the real "snakes"
i can see real good samaritans.. got in trouble because they are doing their jobs
i can see the real "conflict"
i came to know what is really going on to the business world..
what we always see in the drama or movie... they will say.. in the business world.. no one is the forever enemy or friends.. now, i totally agree to it.. we must always the unexpected to happen to us no matter what..

today i spoke to my friends..
he said i've put my personal attachment into those matter..
and now i'm thinking twice.. its rather true though..
i think what my weakness is,
when a person treats me good or when a person helps me a lot...
i will do anything for him/her, physically or personally
espeacially when after helping they get into trouble...
even if they are just doing what they supposed to do.. or "duty"
still i will feel the guilt inside me..
without me realise, i did put some personal feelings and opinion on some decisions i make..
but it is of course anyhow the decision, it will definitely be the benefits of students..

besides, dont judge a person by its cover, i can say it is absolutely true, well i also can say sometimes there are people who is totally opposite from they look and their attitude..
one can be fierce at times or the facial expression is always in serious mode.. but that person can be totally nice and kind.. will help as much as he/she can.. like a GEM!
on the other hand, a person might look nice and kind, they can speak very well in english.. but in the end that person is a DEVIL inside the skin of the human flesh.. in front of god, he will speak like a angel, in front of the devil, he will speak nasty, and this is one of the most important lessons i learnt all along..

along this matther, i've known what i am suppose to know just to handle things well,
i've also known things that i shouldnt have know, just to keep to myself only..
i've seen true colours of a person which is totally unexpectable
of course there is friends whom they always advice me not to get too involved..
but somehow.. they have to understand.. if i don stand up and speak.. no one will..
when i take up this role.. there is no turning back for me..
if i have stand still.. if i fall back.. everything will turn really ugly tremendously..
if i jump to adp.. and leave things behind to the other ecu students.. it will show how irresponsible person i am..

today around 1 i had a lunch with my lecturer, straight we come to a point where we decided to reform the student council in our college..
so its been a day for me running around to sign the petition to give it to SSD within today or tomorrow.. so i did it... i got 100 names in 3 hours time.. i think it is time to show some "customer's right" and some student power to all those bastards..

hmm... tomorrow i'm gonna meet all of the people up and discuss their "perwatakan"
stress...
now.. i do hope that she will not be transfered.. pray to god by all means...
i seriouslly don't know what to do without her...

MAPCU-MQA HIGHER EDUCATION FAIR 2009

2009-04-06T14:25:00.017+08:00

yups!
our college is the organiser for this edu fair this year...
its called MAPCU-MQA higher education fair, in PWTC...
from 11am till 7pm
well, if u see the news on Bernama TV , newpapers or radio station.. u shall heard about this event..

on the first day i woke up on 7am in the morning and reach PWTC at around 9...
we have to be there early on the 1st day because there is a lot of preparation to do as the VIPs and the VVIPs are all coming...
all of us were damn stress!
our boss a.k.a Mama(the mkt ppl come out with this name hahaha!!) was so stress and so worried about us whether we are doing things perfectly.. she cant even sit down.. HAHAHA!!!

DAY 1

Before we leave for PWTC

preparations!!

the red armies!!
ready to "CHIONG AHH!!"

me and tashina was the usherer for the day, owais was the MC, Jonathan in charge of all in lobby.. frankly speaking, everything needs to be in perfect order

i'm so proud i'm one of them

the 2 bossES!!

i was also busy though..
my hp credit can just finish like *poop*!! gone!

Mama in pink.. make sure everything is in order

Mama receiving the certificates on behalf of HELP group

all the VVVVVVIPs

then, we have the press conference..
this time.. we can relax a bit

the 3 main watak utama..

imagine i was talking and these reporters are there..
FUUHH!!

Mr.Jonathan..
see his face of "relax a bit"

of course, we have our free lunch

then after the press conference and meal..
me and abu was the "body guard" for the VIPs..
i wore my heels.. and its like the skin of my leg is coming off!! ouch!!
we follow them everywhere until they went off..
after all the vips ciao.. it is really a relieve

WELCOME!!
y YOU din come!!

our booth

Danny, zech,shereen and *i forgot his name*
haha!!

Hitz FM crew was here..

Adam C

Adam C with the girls!

me and zech

zech and willy

after Day 1, we went to have dinner in Asia Cafe!

Owais, he is forever ready for pics!

martin, matthew and shafi

of course before we ciao, we take the group picture!!

TAKE 1!!

TAKE 2!!

TAKE 3!!

Day 2
we have a tiring day on the 1st day...
so we went to PWTC around 10am

the MAPCU booth..waiting for the aunty in charge to come! wth

go WILLLY the whale!!

Mama and the girls with one the MY FM dj..
but i don know what is her name

the red turn black armies!

aiyoo!! Jonathan.. u fail in model pose la!! tsk tsk

willy is happy because he is saved!!

group picture!!!

TAKE 1!!

TAKE 2!!

TAKE 3!!

finally everything is DONE!!! =)

OF COURSE,
not forgetting our dinner..
we had it in Bondi Beach, The Curve
a lot of the others went back klang straight..
so dinner was just
me,mama, eugene, owais,victor,martin,willy,abu,tashina,guru,zech, karan, jonathan

ms.katherine, eugene and owais

tashina, me and willy

eugene, owais and jonathan

the gays.. zech and abu

guru just cant stop posing

eugene,
the one behind this successful edu fair besides mama

u know..
in this world,
there is 1 kind of guys which they can talk without using BRAINS!!
and boost using super big MICROPHONES!!
in the end which we can see him as
LOSERR!!

this is karan, he say he drinks beer everynight..
he say he is veryyy good!!
so, he kept drinking.. quite fast though
before his food comes, he had finish around 3 cups..

and then in the end..
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he was down with 3 cups of beer...
start puking straight after he had his food..
he did not even finish his food..
what a waste
then he cant even walk till he have to sleep there..
tsk tsk.. haiz
kanak kanak.. don lah show off!!
what is so "cool" about that??

he sooo deserve it man!
anyhow all of us had a good laugh on him that night!!

victor and us!! thanks for the jugs beers!!

hmmm.... the dinner was really great.. haha!!

well matthew.. u miss it.. hahaha!!
not much picture were taken because we got no time for that..
although we had 2 tiring day.. but still all of us are very happy and really got the satisfaction out of this edu fair.. we are very happy working with the mkt people..
of course i also learn a lot of thing because this is also my first time working in edu fair..
haha!! and 2 days just passed by in a blink of an eye!

well, luckily today i got no class.. haha!!
i had the most comfortable night yesterday and also the earliest to sleep that day, hahaha!!

its worth all the tiredness after all :)

oh god! tomorrow i've got to do the meetings again.. geez.. really duno when it is going to end.. haiz

2009-04-02T22:55:00.003+08:00

i just had a wonderful dinner with Mr.Victor, Ms. Katherine, martin, owais, eugene, matthew and valerie.. we talk a lot as all of us are from the college.. i do enjoy it as all of them are very very friendly and somehow i do learn a lot of things from them..
of course i show deepest appreciation to the both that has helped a lot in problems that seems "unlogical" to settle..

then i came back..
there my sister goes with the joint account thing again..
fucking make my veins turn green!
i was damn furious!! i just explode!
i mean i told them a gazillion time already.. steady and firm on my decision that i don't want to joint my ptptn account with her.. they are still talking about it as if dont they understand english..
if course i have my reasonnot to joint..
which mainly because my working pay is also banking into this account..
then she said ask me open another account.. Fuck la.. i'm not that free
another thing is of course i will not spend my fees money.. if not how am i suppose to pay my fees.. then they also start talking cock there... what i want to do with the extra money is my problem.. but the fees money i will never touch it
of course they will always ugut me saying that..
"if u want us to pay for u 1st when the college want you to pay before the ptptn comes.. we wont borrow u any money"
FUCK them la.. they are the one who doesnt want to come up with the money to let me continue my studies.. that is why i HAVE to borrow loans.. cb!
if not i wont be so pek cik everyday have to settle this problem with all those snake head pig brain people in the college..
i tel u.. confirm on saturday when i go to my grandma's house... when all the aunties is there...
i sure kena lecture until.. i cry also no use
what i face no one will know as i dont tell.. everyday i have to meet those useless people or write this or that.. making my life so miserable!!
but also there a good thing.. that is i'm able to meet capable and nice people.. besides i also learn quite a lot of thing from it... i know well about few kinds of things.. haha

there is already so many problems in college.. come back home.. they just want to argue useless things..
sometimes people thought i dont like to go home.. but seriouslly speaking..i want to go home.. u know.. go home relax and all those thing..
but if i cant get a peace of my mind.. i dont see the point of going home and face those kind of bullshit..i rather stay out.. and go home when everyone is asleep...

i shall stop complaining...
hmmm..
i'm helping out at the MAPCU at PWTC for my college this saturday and sunday..its like a education fair.. so anyone interested to come?? hahaha..
anyone espeacially form 5 and 6!! if you don't know what to do next or what to do?? come attend!!
there's a lot of thing running in my head.. sibeh tao tia..
ciao for now :)

2009-03-30T01:45:00.003+08:00

haha!! saw this interesting mail.. hahah!!
there's a reminder in every cartoons
enjoy enjoy..

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

prevent it.. before its too late...

think before u act

the pig and bacon!!

always "take precaution"

my problems with the college is almost solved..
i'm sure i'm on the winner side..
ohh! i love the feeling of it!! hahaha!!
nites =)

Yan Wen's birthday

2009-03-27T20:07:00.005+08:00

asd
last week celebrated yan wen's birthday

the new attraction of the family

the popiah was DELICIOUS..
ITS 10/10!

aunty shep pheng- Chef of the day

thirsty?

my mom look quite young in this picture..

the main dish of the day
RED WINE CHICKEN WITH MEE SUAH!!!
IT IS 100/100!

he was playing with the trackmill

the "ah soh" corner

just look how happy she is

THE END

i have a question..
i have a friend.. which i knew her since secondary.. but not very close
and.. we came to know each other well since college..
so we do hang out quite often
so i do know her friends well... and at the end i know all her friends and will ask them out for lunch and yum cha.. well i do that to everyone
and then.. few days back i came to a point which i was very amazed and totally unexpected!
i went to her place to pick her up and she was very cold on me and she just kept quiet..

so happen yesterday.. i ask one of her friends.. why is she so cold to me..
then i got a very very unpredictable answer...
it breaks my hearts so much even worst than breaking up with bf
he told me
i was stealing her friends away from her
it was like wtF!!
so i ask why
the answer was
sometimes she feels her friends were more closer to me and for her.. it was stealing her friends from her!
OMG!! i din know being friendly was such a MISTAKE!!
no wonder when i ask her whether want to ask her friends out.. she totally ignore me saying all of them were very busy...
now she is like totally doesn't want to talk to me..
i msg her but no reply
i call her but she always say she's not available to talk
when i ask her out she would say she not free.. too many h/w and assignments

wow!! FRIENDS!!
that how she treat me!!
just because of her stupid jealousy!!!
just because SHE FEELS i am "STEALING" her friends!!!!
the answer is totally"AWESOME"!!
it was darn unexpected!!
i always want her to know my friends..
now.. i knew her friends.. she say i'm STEALING!!
i have really NO IDEAAAAA on what the hell is she thinking!!
what should i do??
stop seeing HER friends!! wtf!!
she has NO RATIONAL thinking AT ALLL!!!!

i'm so stupid!!

2009-03-24T22:44:00.002+08:00

wooh.. today i was damn tension when i was going to college..
then i went to check up..
and there...
i found...
PINJAMAN PTPTN TELAH DILULUSKAN...

i was like
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!!!

hahahaaaaa!!!
lets celebrate come on!

damn bodoh.. still got to appeal for law.. sigh

=(

2009-03-20T23:51:00.003+08:00

i've always keeps thing to myself..
its not that i have no one to talk to or what..
its because it's an embarrassment and i don't know if i speak out,
what will others might think..

today i speak here,
because today was my result day..
of course.. if u see till now.. u will know what had happen
yes.. i failed one of my subjects.. LAW..
i am so not satisfied with the results because the australian thinks that my lecturer here gave us too much of marks and too easy to get high marks.. so they re-evaluate the whole thing..
in the end.. they fail me

of course.. i felt very very sad and was really damn dissapointed ..
it is because this subject.. i have the most confident to pass it.. because i've already got 30/40% in the first half.. impossible i got only 10% for my finals right????
i was like WTF!!! when i got my results..
eventually i got a D in my MKT and CR in both MGT and BES..
but what is for!! no matter what i get, everything HD or what so ever.. as long as there is a fail in one of the subjects..
i'm dead!
i rather get all just pass!!

well as usual.. i will ask mic to check for me..
i was like stunned for a few seconds when i knew it..
the feeling was like... sudden coldness in the body and just stun!
i know last time i've fail before math and stats..
but this time is totally different..
for math and stats.. somehow i've got the premonition..
but not law..
and for the last semester.. i am really s t u d y i n g!

i've told myself that i must do well in uni, especially in the 1st semester,
because i want to prove to my dad that he doesnt want to come up a sen to let me continue studies is his worst decision, and must let my own family other relatives not look down on me anymore.. but now, i feel like total useless.. i feel like banging my stupid to the wall! i also know that my mother will also be very dissapointed in me =(
i seriouslly have been studying for finals like i never study before in semester one..
not playing a fool.. and all i want is just pass everything..
i dont expect any D or HD.. just pass is all i need..

i serioully don't know what to do now..
except.. keep thinking about my results and am i be able to appeal
a lot of people told me to move on and not think too much... but its not easy
but what more can i do?
i am very dissapointed on myself... very sad.. very frusrated.. very scared...very angry
but, it has already happened...
i know what are the obstacle i will face... even worst to come.. but still, what more can i do? i am so not ready.. but i HAVE TO BE ready

thanks a lot for those who shows their concerns
i will do my best to appeal.. and really hope everything goes well..
hmm =(

till now, i'm still wondering whether i should tell my sister and parents..

A)if i tell them.. i'm not in hot soup.. but in an erupting volcano..
and things will be very very very very uglyyy
everything will change.. in a negative way

B)if i dont tell them.. which means tell them i pass everything
everything will be fine between me and my family
but i have to keep all the problems to myself.. settle it asap
and gotta fork out a lot of money to retake.. which means i have to work not just weekend, but weekdays also.. no more holidays planning for me =(
gotta be very careful with my words so that i will not be caught up

i think i will go for plan B...
haiz =(

i would really appreciated if.. what i've wrote here in my blog.. remains here.. thats also a sign of respect to my privacy..
thank you

Myera back in msia!

2009-03-19T21:05:00.008+08:00

yup!!
it was sunday and finally we managed to meet myera up after so loooooooong!!
the gathering was just me, ja ye, judith, melinda(was late for 2 hours), nick, joey, bobo and myera and the rest were all MIA..
we had lunch in Fridays, Pyramid..
and we have enjoyed very much!

pictures TIME!

melinda(was late for 2 hours) and myera

joey and melinda(was late for 2 hours)

nick, joey and ja ye

the "liang mois!!"
ja ye, melinda(was late for 2 hours), myera and judith

group pics!!

the gang and bobo

yupS!! the whole gang..
although not very complete...
but with this number of people attend..
veryveryveryveryveryvery goood already

after lunch...
we got nothing to do..
so we went rack to play a few rounds of pools and foos
then...
head to
Rock cafe in sunway to "da gei"
then...

of course speaking of dinner...
hmmm..
as usual..
i will rot at ja's place..
and
i was lucky..
i got to eat
"Pang Ja Ye's home cook duno wat maceroni"

this is not her kitchen..
this is her study table
><""

woah!! so many things inside

more than what my mom put in her soup
still..
it taste good =)

washing time..
this is the part where everyone hates the most
hahaha!!
aduuuiii...
look at her...
"chut tak teng tong, yap dak chu fong"
alex!!
lucky ah u!!!
tsk tsk

THE NEXT DAY
meet up with JMMKJ for lunch!!
the new mic with her short hair..

satisfying lunch =)

hahaha..
hmmm...
my hair very short mer???
is it too short??
i duno... but i know my mom like it.. hahaha

omg!! my messy table!!
damn lazyyyyyy

BWAIS for now!!

2009-03-18T04:23:00.002+08:00

awwwwwh!!!!! i've been to the toilet for like 5 times already!!!
cannot really feel my legs!! ergggh!!
just ate the roti john from murni!!! WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!
cannot really sleep... its 4.25 already!!! tomorrow class at 10!!!
gosh!! i think i should start going to class already!!! i mean on time.. hehe
haiz.. thats the bad thing about staying nearby to college...
feel DAMN lazy to wake up!!
last time... FUUUHH!! class start in the afternoon also 6am i wake up to college d!!
wanna late for class also very hard!

omg!! my results gonna be release on 19th!! means only just 1 day left!!
i paling benciiiii!!! hate results!!! but really pray hope i do well.. hmmm...
omg!! the worst thing is!!
i forgot my student's portal username and password!!!
heeeeh...

aiyooooo!! the 2 malay songs i heard in ja's place keep playing in my brain!!!
see!! see!! see!! aduh!!!

i think i should retake piano... yeah.. i should =)

wedding party + birthday party

2009-03-17T21:14:00.004+08:00

last saturday.. hm..
was quite a night because
attended ban li's wedding dinner and eugene's pre-birthday party!

hmm.. ban li's wedding party i did not take pics because..
too many people i dont know..
and i forgot to take also.. haha!!

EUGENE FOO'S 2OTH!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

his birthday cheese cake!!
taaste good!!
would rate 8/10!!

20 years old cute MAN!!

mah jong!!!
is a must thing in eugene's house

me and eugene

bwai!!

Tenji, Mont Kiara

2009-03-13T20:19:00.011+08:00

hahaha!! today around 12 we reach mont kiara...
then we have JAPANESE BUFFET!!!
after months of planning.. finally we went!!
just me, jason, peggy and ann

on the way in.. the place look so nice..

MAKAN TIME!!

oh... FOOD!!

FOODS!!

FOODSSSS!!!
the oyster are very very fresh!!
the seafood soup was nice..

haagen daz ice cream... nah.. not my type

buy TOTO!!!

desert counter loooks so nice.. but i would rate it 2/10 only

DIM SUM..
tai thong better..
i mean WAYYYY better

kelapa!! very niceeee

bamboo lala... like chewing gum =="

grill lamb chop... ok la...

oooo... MY LOVE... shape.. hahaha!!
fruit punch was good..
chocolate fondue was ok

"lou foh tong"
nice nice.. 8/10

the restaurant enviroment was good

the outside environment was superb

peggy, ann, jason

me and peggy

the bill!!

i break my record!!!
i drank 9 coconut!! hahaha!!
damn full filling..
if go on weekend lunch has discount..
normal rate was rm77++... but if go on weekdays is rm56...
hahaha!! ok la... quite worth it because most of the food was really fresh..

really satisfy with all the japanese food...
but just japanese food only...
others was... erm...
in hokkien we say
"mai hiam beh pai, ai hiam kanasai"

hahahaha!!!
oh... my purse is bleeeeeding already!!
nvrmind.. at least i got a satisfying meal =)

oh ya!!
those who's attending myera's dinner... change to lunch at 1.30pm already!!
remember ya!!
c u guys there =) ciaoz!

2009-03-12T21:56:00.003+08:00

oh goooooodness grace!!!!!
there will be always a time.. where everyone is very busy...
seriouslly i find all my contacts.. none is free!! oh god!!
those are free... confirm staying in hostel somewhere in KL..
always it will happen at least once a year.. no doubt!!
lols!!
very sien nehhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

online also ntg to go online also..
watch tv.. all also watch before already..
eat something... no mood to eat..
do homework.. i got no homework to do..
watch drama.. all also i watch before already..

i'm going CRAZYYY!!! because of boredness....
oh gosh!!

ohhh... i need a life!!! DESPARATELY!!!!! =(

2009-03-07T02:04:00.004+08:00

as a student in a college.. actually all a student expect is to study...
and now..
besides studying..
-i have to settle my PTPTN thing since like last year with the management
-all those babi management... only sit there to enjoy aircond doing nothing
-discuss with all other students to settle the same problem..
-always have meetings with the "Top" management... which consists of all those UNCLES which has the qualification of PHD, MASTERS!!! wow.. seeems so "PRO!!!" but in the end... all macam that bladdy USELESSS!! all bullshit!! a waste of resources... all like bunch of rubbish!!! go recycle also don't know got people wanna reuse them
-still waiting for my results ><"" -writing all those complaint letters and emails

damn kao peh!!!

if i were a kid..
i will show them
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this!!

if i were a monkey..
i will show them
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this!!!

if Obama was the CEO/founder of my college
he will show the management team
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this!!!

if Bush wants to take over my college
to train students to go
WAR in IRAQ..
his first thing he will show all the staff is.
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if u are guessing how piss i am with my current college..
when i explode..
the explosion would be
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like THIS!!!

sigh.. i miss taylors.. especially all the people there =(

Scarlet, Cinneleisure

2009-03-04T00:25:00.012+08:00

hahaa.. it was the COUSINS NIGHT OUT!!!
STRICTLY!!! NO PARENTS ALLOWED!!!
yup.. we went to scarlet during the second night of CNY...
this was really the 1st time.. all of us went!!
damn SYOK!!
one of the best night...
of course.. all of my other younger cousins been "de-virginizeD"!!!
one FANTASTICA night!!
we dance ourselves out... and to some of us do feel damn surprised how well some of our cousin can really danced.. and drinked!! hahah!! anyway
gotta thank Glenn and Joanne for the liquors =)

shin wae(my sister), steph, me and joanne

Glenn!

fei, joe, wei yoong, joanne

me and fei

jo, joe, steph, telen

sarah, me , loo

haha!! wei liang already DOWN!!
need more pratise!!

YO!!

hahah!! telen in syok-ness!!

gariet and me

steph!!

shin wae, telen, steph
i was not the only red face "guan gong" there..

jo and DRUNKEN JOE!!

WOOOOO!!!

the 2 HARDCORES

in DOUBLE syok-ness!!!

steph, shawn(coordinator for the night), jo and me

two lovable cousin brothers... AWWWW

FIVE.... TEN!!!!!!!!!

CHEESEEEE!!!

as u can see, after much puking, finally he managed to walk..

i think we should have more outing!!!
hahahah!!!

today's class was HORRIBLE!!!
almost fell asleep due to BOREDNESSSSS!!!
oh god!!!
canot canot canot...
must pay attention!!!
....zzzzz...
OMG!! assignments!!!
arrrrrggghhh!!!!

Tahun Baru Cina 2009!!!

2009-03-03T02:41:00.015+08:00

wooh finally... i actually managed to sort out damn lot of pics of CNY...
now i can post.. =)
hahaha!!
this year was a good one because most singaporeans stayed up till 1 week only they went back..

24th and 25th(1st day of CNY)

fruit fight!

then they have dinner at centro..

of course,
after makan... GAMBLE!!!

OMG!! see the stacks of money she has in her hands!!

joanne!

joanne and steph

26th(2nd day of CNY)
ISNT wei bhin adorable!!

the real story was..
supposing that bottle of biscuit is mine!!

wei yang and ying fei

MAHJONG!!

then at night..
we went to fei's house to make the famous HAKKA dish
which needs a lot of "man POWER!!"
this hakka must eat dish IS...
ABACUS!!!

27th(3rd day of CNY)

the super DEALER!!

that was when she was damn energetic..
this was when she exhausted!!
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WUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

THEN at night...
all those very very very verrrry delicious food for DINNER!!!

ABACUS!!

CHICKEN FEET!!

RED WINE PORK!!

PRAWNS!!
damn satisfying!!

GAMBLE!!!

discussion among sistas!!
loaning was actually happening!

aunty julinda damn syok with the money she won

the future generation of beauty queens
miranda, laresa, reniece, yan ni

28th january(4th day of CNY)

aunt shep pheng and aunt janice started dancing..
o.O""""

fei, steph and me

steph, loo, my sister

sisters!!

aunt tricia, my mom, aunt shep pheng

then of course..
the last day before singaporeans went back..
the must thing they eat
"CHAR MEE"!

CHINESE NEW YEAR is always a good time to be togather..
the whole family.. everybody came back..
just feels good.. hahaha...

today had lunch with melinda and nick..
then dinner with susianne... hahha.. still damn funny..
then went up to pangsapuri which i havent went up for ages!! hahaha!!
chit chat a lot of things.. damn super funny!!!
went back around 10....

i wonder why today i just feels tired... hahaha!!

this semester's timetable is like... ADUI!!
monday and tuesday only 1 hour class... manatau friday class ends damn late!! arrgh!!!

my flu is killllllllllling me!!! arrrgghhh~!!!!

break dance!

2009-03-02T03:31:00.005+08:00

usually u can see that big kids like us do break dancing...
but..
my cousin... only 4 years old..
can already did that..

hahaha!!!

THE NEXT BREAK DANCE KING!!

GO GO GO!!
*music starts*

*finally he's tired after 20 minutes*

hahaha!! my naughty little cousin...
although he always give me bruises when we're having "War"
or...

he is my mum's SECRET WEAPON!! to wake me up in the morning...
u know why...
it is because...

he can just *POOP* JUMP on me *backbone touches the nerve, then sends signal to wake me up a.s.a.p to avoid backbone fracture*
this 20kg super duper hyper active 4 years old kid!! with the height of 7 years old boy!!
i really wonder when i'm going to have bone fractures because of this rascal!

anyway.. i still love him...very much....hahahha!!

semester 2 starts... BUHUHUHUHUHUH!!

2009-03-02T01:42:00.002+08:00

although yesterday go "climb" genting mountain...
came back at around 5am...
still today i manage to get up to go to work..
hahaha!!!

sadly, i'll be out of work...
or i can say loooong break from work because the shop i'm currently working is renovating..
shall take around 1 months...
means no pay for the next 3 weeks... aahhhhh!!!!! dieeeeeeee!!!
aduuuuhaiii....

SIGH!!
in few hours time... i gotta go college to...to...to... haiz..
there goes my 3 months break...
time flies man...

there's a really funny conversation few days back when i was having lunch with matthew..

M: hey!! omg!! y the hell u cut ur hair damn short!
G: haiz.. stress mah... rambut gugur...
M: hahaha... seriouslly, u look like u just came out of army camp..
G: o.O"""

2009-02-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

oh god~~
just came back from steamboat, Serdang

in a few minutes time...
will b going to genting..
oh god!! 2 times in a week...

~bored~
=(

genting + nu ze sui

2009-02-25T21:03:00.002+08:00

suppose to go to Genting to attend the WLT drama awards..
then mana pulak last minute no more tickets.. @!#^*E$%@#$%
anyhow.. i'm not going home!! coz i've told my mum i'm out!!
so.. went to jason's house play WII...
then around 11pm... only we went up...
anyhow.. we still went up..
and we meet YIN!! YAY!!
balik rumah around 5.30am

then the next day...
me, ivan, jason and ann went " NIU ZE SUI" ara damansara to go kai kai...

OMG!! ivan... screw u!

thats what i bought there.. HAHAHA!!

THEN..
we went to SHIOK CAFE..
it sounds so like high class

and then,. its not...

its just a normal mamak..
LOL!!

today i really can feel some satisfation...
i wash my car..
fix my car's air cond..
cut my hair... short!

hahaha... hehehehe...

2009-02-23T15:46:00.002+08:00

today when i woke up, receive a msg from my lecturer...

and then when i went to find out..
i was damn dissapointed with my current uni..

the problem here is..
i've been in holidays for like 3 months already
and i've not received my results yet..
other uni got their results is like 2 weeks after their exams!!
it is so damn ridiculous!!

and the worst part is that even the timetable is not finalised yet!!
what the fucking type of uni and college is that!!

as a student.. if u're in my situation...
what would u do?

i think is the best is that..
most probable i would change my course to another uni..
mayb SNHU, ADP..
if i get exemptions..

sigh.. now i am in deep trouble if i tel my parents and sisters about it

sometimes, when i wanna put faith and trust into something new..
the management have to do something..

and when i talk about my college's management...
i would say...
" FUCK THEM"
damn worthless pigs!!

OUT!!

Vivian's farewell @ Shogun

2009-02-20T20:39:00.006+08:00

hmm... it was 2 weeks ago..
we had a farewell party for Ryan and Vivian at shogun before they leave for Perth..
that 2 happy couple go anywhere also very happy wan la...
always stick together.. unseparable!!

3 of us!!

vivian and khai krun

eugene, sim and hua hong

yong sheng and the rest

me, vivian and ryan

Besides that..
we bought her a HUGE card for them..
hahaha!!
all of us damn syok sendiri signing our autograph!!

then design our own sampul surat!!hahaha!!

the work of all those artistic guys!

group photo

after that..
the 3 batangs went to buy valentine's gift..
in..
POH KONG!!!
wahlau eh!!
then me and eugene just wait for them outside...

so indecisive 3
&
single and mingle Eugene

ciaoz!! =)

party at Jason's house

2009-02-19T00:05:00.009+08:00

it was the.. i think on the 9th day of CNY...
jason had party at his place..
most of our secondary friends were invited..
college friends were just a few... because all of them stayed in KL..

so that night.. was real drunken night.. coz most of the guys were REALLY drunk...
and the most amazing thing was..
we got drunk not because of friends...
it is because we were drinking with jason's MOM & AUNTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg!!
that night was
JASON'S MOM & AUNTY VS JASON'S FRIENDSSSSSSS!!!!

and really to our surprise!!
WE LOSTTTT!!! TERUK TERUK!!!
imagine there is like around 10 guys and a few girls drinking...

when
50% start vomiting
20% lying on the bed cannot even move
30% start sleeping on the couch and some talk talking nonsense

HIS MOM IS STILL PLAYING WII!!!!!!
WASHING THE PLATES AND CUPS!!!
AND TIDY UP THE LIVING ROOM!!
oh god!! i salute her man...

and HIS AUNTY only cannot tahan and then lay down on the bed when about 90% already seriouslly damn drunk!!
i really salute the both of them...
that nite we were really enjoy

the pretty gurls

that night was hell lot of people..
some went back quite early
some went to second round

WII time!! it was really fantastic!

just look at winson's expression

hah!! everyone

then drinking time starts when jason's aunty and mom took out the liquors!!

AUNTY!! SO YOUNG!!

aunty, justin, david

joe, justin and me

jason, ann, david, banana, soon, jie

peggy..
being force to drink due to over demand!!!

winson, hon, kelvin,joe,aunty, justin, me

justin and ivan

aunty, justin and ying lun

jason and his mom

winson and drunken loke wan

ying lun, jason,jie, ivan, hua hong and see guan

these 2 disgusting super "gays"!!!

and then
at the end...

hahha!! the others picture were not taken coz tired also..
and i did not take all those pics!! it was jason's mom who took all the pics.. amazing...
that nite.. i drove back at around 4 plus in the morning after i took a deep nap...

still.. i swear i would never drink and drive again... my god...
the taste of wanting to fall asleep and wanted to reach home as soon as possible when my dad wakes up and finds out is horrible!!!

so... the other guys who fell asleep continue to sleep till 6 in the morning..
when the "awaken drivers" fetch them home around 7... they continue sleeping until the end of the day.. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
very good memories ;)

young people... HAHAHAHAHA!!!!