SOMETHING!

last week, everything assignment was passed up...
but that is no sign of relieve to me because all this while, i've been busy with other things, got to admit that i have somehow neglected my studies..

i really miss those time where me and my friends are always together doing all sort of things.. even just yum cha session but we already have a great time..
things change.. people change.. environment change.. friends change.. love ones change.. even the closest to you change..everything change

if u're up to date on my matters.. then u should know i'm currently running for the president for student council..
of course, in the beginning, sure la beria-ia, but then, some problems begin to settle down and finally i began reflecting and thinking of all those things had happen..
i did ask myself - "why are u doing all these? just for the sake of filling your 'empty spaces'? do people appreciate what you do? are u a fool doing all these? changes, yes, we need to change but how much can i do in such a college? a leader, am i still capable of doing it? sometimes i feel its better for me to just follow orders, kissing my boss's ass and climb up the ladder than wanted to do something where i must protect myself from being 'killed' every single day.

it aint easy for me to reach 'here' and 'now'.. also now i cant and cannot afford to turn back.. i cant just keep quiet because i know by doing that the 'assasins' can easily get their job done..
sometimes i feel like giving up with the 'i don know and i don care' attitude, but i just cant do it..
some matters, i am so personally attach till i forget i'm a student! for god sakes!

i do have experience, no matter how much i do, how much i sacrifice, how much time i've put on, how much efforts i put in, still i cant change THE thing..

well, after so much things, i really learn a lot of things.. the experience is remarkable, i've meet the "big" people, also i've meet capable and amazing people.. not only nice but.. i also duno how to say.. i would say its a blessing from god to let me know those people..
on the other hand, i've meet terrible people.. seriously horrible.. no words can describe how typical stupid and idiotic! they are so self-centered till even a passerby would spit on them when they walk by.. thats life..

sometimes i also feel very very tired.. my life just black and white...if not about this.. then is about that.. just a or b.. i feel so sick with it.. i go to college, go class, lepak at mkt, have lunch, go lim teh.. then go dinner with the rest.. go home, sleep.. then i repeat the same thing for the next 1864638368 days..nothing productive.. i need a LIFE man..

what i feel now is.. there is SOMETHING missing.. but i dont know what is that... haiz

i went to HUC today with kazi and shafaraz to send her things to ms.kath .. omg! her room has shrink to just a quarter from her room here! but, there is more peaceful and she's loving it.. we've miss her presence here though... then always we'll go either makan or drink.. supposingly she follow us back to klang manatau boss panggil.. haha.. we had a good time in the car and the front bumper coming out.. and also helped to remove the furniture s with the stacks of files whre the chair has been the joke of the day.. LOLS!
so we drop eugene off and balik..
yea.. this is the only thing i did can be defined as "productive" today ><"

GOD HELP ME! *emo*
GOD BLESS ME! *faint*