C h a p t e r 69

stress+ worry + sad +depress +confused +emo +bored +furious +lonely +pissed +tired +sick
= mental abuse + hysterical

hmm.. people plz wish me luck for my stats paper tomorrow...
hmm.. people plz pray for me that i can pass this stats paper...
*sigh*


today, when u watch a tv programme, "a date with lu yu" and they actually visited and interviewed LYDIA SUM.. and i actually grieved for her lost.. because she said a lot of things from the depth of her heart, i saw her really slim down due to her battle against cancer..

there is 2 sentence she said

"i will fight the sickness till the end, what i can do now is take care of my own body, and i just have to leave everything to the doctors because i can now only relay on them"

"i will make sure i survive and will fight till the end because i want to see my daughter published her 1st album, i want to watch my daughter get married... i want to see it on my own and i want to be there for her"

her sentence is really touching and sad because now she had already went back to the hands of god.. ya,i mean.. it is very true that we actually grow up watching her shows and movies.. the best of every part is that her laughter is very 'her'
its her own style.. no one can laugh as loud and as contagious as her..

its quite saddening and quite sudden for her to pass away and i really pity her daughter coz now she is alone in this world.. as what her mum had said before that..
she had not some spend much time with her daughter and she loved her daughter very much..
she also told that the max number of times she call her daughter in Canada was 11 times a day!!! hahaha!!! that is too much!!

her optimistic view on eveything was fantastic, although she was sick but the interview was great.. i mean interesting, as in you would want to know more about her and want to know more, she has also said a lot of meaningful words and sentences that.. it is very very true... *sobs*


plus, she also said

"i am fat, i have no prefect bodyline, i am not as pretty as the others but i will not feel ashamed of it because every person is beautiful in its own unique way, no matter u are fat or slim, u are beatiful"

but really can see that she really loved her daughter and i think every Chinese people will grieve for her departure.. coz she is always the "happy fruit" in every one's heart.... her death is a really great lost to the entertainment industry and the Chinese people..

"bye, fei fei"

C h a p t e r 68

well, today i suppose to meet ms. jaya.. but apparently i woke up quite late...
so naik subang to meet xin yi and suzanne they all...
had lunch with them and suzanne's dad in uncle seng.. hahaha!!! thnx for the lunch uncle!!! heheheh!!!!
later we went starBUCKS to BUCK up my studies on stats... haiz.. like biasa la.. no mood.. but stilll got do a bit lo..
den chit chat for a while... got ajak mic.. but she very busy... so nvrmind la... *peace*
later went old town makan a bit.. den balik!!!

at 7o clock, went to 'that' college to listen to the talk on ECU.. well probably what the ppl dere talks about what is already been written on the brochure.. quite bored..
and so patheticly only about 10 person attend... yiks!!

ok.. got sumthing at least coz answer some question and got a lucky draw, and i tel u wat i got..
i got and HELP T-SHIRT!!!! wtf!!!!! erk!!!! and pencil and pens and blah blah blah...
1 word.. lousy.. real lousy gifts...

today i feel down in front of foh foh.. and there's a big group of ppl..
freaking malu!!! ergh!!

YES to uce or NO to uce...
very fan ah!!

C h a p t e r 67

after much discussion.. finally made up "half" of my mind.. coz i still have doubt on it..
whether to go into Help.. going into Edith Cowan University which is located in Perth, Western Australia..
i think most of the people might not know this uni.. and the ranking of this uni is not as "high" as unisa..

the good thing of going into HICT is that besides saving tons of money, and this time they offered a Help Trust Saving Fund.. that is i can go into any uni offered in that college itself for only rm33,000, and this 33k is for 3 years of my degree.. its normal fee is like 57k or more jus a few k difference from unisa..

-and coming back to my own 'territory'..
-will be seeing my very old frens...
-meeting.. also my old frens.. but seriously different 'channels' *sigh*
-my hse to that coll is like from pangsapuri to main campus.. maybe jus further a bit
-the area of that coll is like only 1 pathetic 1 floor!! but the compound is much bigger that adp..
-lots of parking
-no one to pull ur car away
-rm1 for whole day parking or u even don't need to pay... and its under shade..
-u only need rm5 to have a satisfying meal
-its 'my' area... i'm the boss!!!! haha.. joking...
-same old ppl and same old enviroment...
-don't really know the quality of the lecturers..


i really wanted to stay back and go into unisa.. of course the main thing is i can be with my friends again and.. it offer internship for the last few sem.. and of course.. subang is the centre point of everywhere... u noe wat i mean... of course.. unisa and uce.. of course unisa ranking is higher.. of course.. when that is the place u started.. that will be ur main choice of u staying back..
here got everything.. except foosball.. and i dun really play anyway..

i really doubt that i will be happy here in ECU, duno why...
maybe bcoz... "my place" is not here... *sigh*

gotta start studying my stats, 2morow and friday going to tcher's consultation hour..
haizzzz.....
langsung tiada mood nak start... but i dun wan gg leh...
will push myself...

hmm... nowadays i've been addicted to AMERICAM IDOL!!! AND AMERICA'S GOT TALENT!!

i tel u... nowdays i really have insomia.. and the coughing jus make me have sleepless night!!
omg!!! but the worst is.. i've been onlining like an owl who don't sleep at nite..
my mom everyday complain and nag like shit!
and my mum had to ask my sis to take the modem away!!!!
fuck fuck fuck!!!
hate this hse more than anywhere else!

home alone

1st DAY..
my mum and my brothers left the house at 5.30 in the morning..
so don't know why..today i wake up very early also.. at about 11oclock...
mum jus say don't mess up the house and make sure the house is clean when she's back...
dad went to work.. din ta pao food for me... but he left a bunch of dirty dishes for me..
my uncle left me his dog to be taken care of... and it is currently sick...
then i continued my sleeeeeeep!!

after that... i make myself japanese tako and mushroom soup for brunch...
at nite... i have maggi mee dinner... geezz
din take all those junk food coz.. having bad sorethroat..
well i did really take 8 cups of warm water to make me comfortable..

although i m alone... but i did enjoy the peacefulness.. i mean i had to do everything on my own..
but.. its not that bad, coz its not the 1st time mah.. anyway...
i can online whenever i want..
i can watch the tv as long as i want..
i can sleep on the sofa sambil watch movie and nobody cares!!
i can sleep until what time i like with no one to off!! my aircond!!!
i can on the radio as loud as i like..
i can any where i want...
the best is... there is only my voice, no others.. haahaa!!


2nd DAY
woke up about 1pm... as usual fed the dog.. den went lunch with gene.. suppose to watch movie but at last we end up in jia wei's place.. haha!!! chit and chat bout our secondary life until dinner time..
as usual..went steamboat... along with loong, leo and kai..
hmmm... we are full.. meals satisfying... laugh till the end... quite cheap.. only 16per person and suddenly pulak loong and kai ajak go barcelona....
its still early and all of us are bored so we went there and have a few rounds of drinks...

we ajak tong, yeh and leong also.. so 6 of us at first.. reach there.. drink. quite sian also..
the songs has never updated... boring!!!
more and more ppl coming in.. hot gurls.. but no cute guys... boring!!!
my fren's fren came.. means more ppl.. but all "seafood".... more boring!!!!!!!
15 ppl there.. and i knew only 5 ppl.. oh god!!! jus sit there... drink drink drink..... sienzzzz!!!!!!

all we do there is sit, drink, watch football... went back quite early.. at 2sumthing...
MAN U WAS PERFECT!!!!! THEY TRASH ARSENAL LIKE PIECE OF SHIT!!!!
ENJOY THE GAME!!
whole body is so "sweeet" coz they drunken "prawns" keep pouring their drinks!! shit!!
and superb "smoke" smelly!!! yuck!!


3rd DAY
woke up at "my" time also...
dad din ta pao also... had mushy soup also... erk!!
last day of my "peace day"
ate maggi mee again... quite jelak d..
hmmm... dinner in mamak... there goes today...
tomorrow i will start study in bst,
hmmm... ppl.. pray for me...


after these 3 days, i thoroughly thinking of how to tel my dad that i want to continue in unisa.. and think think think... i think i will go Help.. coz, besides saving tons of money... its good also.. coz not that many distraction...
i jus realise i played way tooo much..
i just enjoy my college like toooo much...
worry and regret only when results are out.. is a no no no way for me in degree...
*hope so*
i can go up to anywhere to meet my frens.... right??
am i doing the right decision?? *confused*

CNY

1st day of CNY..
well.. some pics to post...
hahaha!!!!
i mean every year also normal lah..
ntg speacial.. jus dat this is the last year we spend our new year in this hse coz my grandma is moving to new hse... *sobs* this hse is full of memory..

the 1st day we always have vegetarian.. not bah kut teh!! hahah!!

very "tempting"... for monks lah!

this is only the one quarter of the cookies bought and made

experts playing mahjong..

lack of sleep...

joanne and sis

joe and wei ling web cam-ming with ying loo in adelaide.. *sobs* miss u...

after that we went to our "ze pou" hse.. means my mother's mother's sister's hse..
hahaha!!!

top- han en, bro, miranda
below- yan ni, bro2 and zhen yi

uncle brain as the "zong ge"!!

garret, uncle ding, zhen yi, wei yong and me and my bro

wart!! so small!! hahaha!!

this is wat we cal.. the "almost the same" blood cousins..

after that.. we went uncle ding's house... the pics are still with yan wen.. wen!! pic!!! i want!!
hehehe.... of course we felt a little bored..
so.. shawn decided to go to velvet with his cousin bro..
so he ask whether we want to also... i mean 1st day of CNY wor... got ppl go wan meh?
so.. we break the record and we went.. hahaha!!!

but... before we went.. i call up nickky whether he wants to join o not..
since he always complain he is so sienzz...
and jan & dan was there.. hahaha!!! well.. i can sense a bit that they are quite drunk too when toking on the fone.. hahahah!!

shawn, glenn, garret, jeff, joanne, me and my sis went... we din go in 1st.. jus order something to drink.. and chit chat..
so amazingly!! we went zouk-bar 1st..den glenn came out with his idiotic game cal "up down".. ordered liquor..and make everyone actually quite drunk.. expept him... he is mean...
but after that we went in velvet for a while.. and guess wat.. this is the 1st time..
they went dancing.. i was standing on the up floor.. lying to the bench there.. and actually fell asleep.. i mean not asleep.. its like once u close ur eyes.. u jus wanna lay down... and i was actuallly standing... i jus close my eyes and hold my head with my hands ...and the music is so noisy... but there was jam pack!!

*sigh* the pics are still in singapore!! not yet import in.. hehe.. will post later..



2nd day of CNY
erm... the singaporeans left early this year.. so really sad la...
they are the ones who creates all the atmosphere..

*the period of separation*

hahaha!! omg!!! don't hold until lidat lah!! hahaha!!

sis and wei ling.. oops... mummy beside

jia hui, joanne and karen

ohhh... this little brat look so sad*so fake*... ok.. tai qiu kissssss!!!!

ok lah!! y so sad!! the malaysians will be going to singapore for aunt janice open hse wat!!!
i cannot go!! *sobs*!! i want to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!