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had a wonderful and very unwonderful day... today... y??
coz its the spiderwick day and...BANG BANG day...
just let the pics do all the talking la...
in pyramid,
and of course we always do "our" thing

1ST ELEVATOR

2ND ELEVATOR

3RD ELEVATOR
and wow!!!

madeline, mich, kim, yawn

oh!! we really din realise that yawn was there

mich sempat take the pic b4 yawn... u noe... 3rd stage..wahahaha
"honey... anyone?"
=)

xinyi and mich

can guess who's shoe were those?

4TH ELEVATOR

5TH EVEVATOR

STILL IN 5TH


6TH ELEVATOR

7TH ELEVATOR
WOW!!!
we are FANTASTIC!!

elevator done then.....

in the TANDAS!!

take 1

take 2

take 3

take 4

take 5
if u wonder who ARE the link where to put the name
"human-pig-munks"
hehe.. now u noe..
nice name rit..

take 6
and finally done with the toilet taking pics

we do meet ron, eng sim and the gang also..

soon after i drop xinyi and kimmy off KTM...
and there goes the nightmare....
BANG!!!
in front of the freaking KTM!!!
and there goes my 538... becomes 444 because now i in need of $$$
i think this is one thing telling me its time to change my car rit, heheehhe

"fly money fly.. fly money fly... fly money fly... fly up to the sky...shalalalalaa"
ok its a song...

the pic mich has been waiting for..
=(

and ya..
last but not least... i have beeeeen very very very very very very very the suei!!!!!
i knock my head which is giving me headache now.. since like last week!!
and i look like a u noe the fish with a very super big head...
i bang my leg to the stupid gate...
blisters is conquering my legs...
and now..
my car...
lucky me huh...
fuck!! I NEED A LIFE!!!!

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today... i actually "sent" my beloved MYERA TAN PICHAY to the KLIA airport..
hahahahah!!! i woke up at 7.30AM to........... call her la!!!!!!!! but at least i called her rit...
but my soul is really at the airport departure hall la.... *sobs*
damn sad leeeerrrrr..... separations do happen when all u can do is to adapt after that..

yup!!!! bye mAnGo...*sobs*
i shall come find u in SINGAPORE when i go back!!!!



ya.. of course after that i went back tidur la.. and i miss my finance class coz i forgot to re-set my alarm...!!! hhahaha!! good also la.. coz... all the class damn bOrInG!!!! i only enjoy business edge class ler...
oh ya!!! today.. we have our B.E class at STARBUCKS!!! wooooo!!! of course la the lecturer belanja us la... ya.. today my breakfast was ice blended mocha frappuccinos... hahahah!!!!!!!

MICH!!! LEEE!!!! SU SU!!!!!
wakakak!!! finally i SPOKE to my new frens.. yay!!!
let me see...erm...
Jeremy- HELP student
Syea Din- SUNWAY student
Gillian- already finish her diploma from this school also
Yee Mei- STAMFORD student
and another 3 still not yet lar, coz they din join us for discussion in library...
yes...LIBRARY...

sigh.. my problems still not solve yet... can someone just kill me...

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no okays..
now i have another problem again...
after i have decided to take the part time while finishing my stats ...
THEN!!!
just when i tot everything will be fine...
the management call and say "u can now do ur stats paper here"
and then there goes the "war" begin...

they keep changing plans.. and i m damn fed up...
ok.. just for the sake of they said that "i have no rights to make decision" ..
ok.. i admit.. its all my fault for not studying well and play as hard as i could..

1st i said.. i suggest i wanna take both stats and degree in taylors and help..
they strongly object


2nd THEY SAID do stats in taylors then take up part time job...
ok.. i accept... den they object again...

3rd THEY SAID do stats and degree in hict...
ok, i accept.. DEN!! my DAD object!!
he say wan me to do my stats 1st which means after i pass...

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!

wat do they want me to do??
wat the fuck they want now?
i follow and obey what they say... and end up???
i am now so in depressed.. i duno wat to do??

all i want is just taking my last resort...
that is let me continue my degree and while i finish my stats...
is that so hard??
i know wat i promise now id of no use...
but can u just trust me for the freaking one last time??
i dont demand more..

tel me wat to do...
all of u sure will say y dun discuss with ur dad..
i tel u... NO POINT DISCUSSING when he already had the mind set

now wat i shuld do?? i listen to them then they just screw everything..
i noe all of u will say its my fault!! but dont u just give me another chance???!!!!
how hard is that!!!

i take loans and all!! i m NOT USING UR MONEY!! i m jus borrowing from U!
WAT THE FUCK IS SO STRESS ABOUT??? ALL THIS SHIT PROBLEMS IS JUST ANNOYING! I GOT SOLUTIONS FOR THE PROBLEMS AND THEN U JUST COME AND SCREW UP EVERYTHING!!! WATS THE POINT!!! FUCK U!! ya i know ITS MY FAULT.. SO?? U REFUSE TO GIVE ME MONEY TO CONTINUE MY STUDIES.. FINE!! I TAKE LOAN..
U JUST NEED TO BORROW A FEW K SO THAT I CAN PAY FOR MY FEES TILL MY LOAN COMES.. AND THEN U CAN JUST SCREW UP EVERYTHING?? WAT I HAD PLAN FOR MY FUTURE AND GIVING MY FUCKING UNREASONABLE ANSWERS?? IF U DON'T HELP ME?? WHO WILL?? OH YA I FORGOT,, I FAIL MY STATS THAT IS LIKE MY WHOLE WORLD IS GONE! I M A FAILURE!! I M JUST RUBBISH I CANT STUDY ANYMORE!! IZIT?? FINE!! WAT EVER U SAY!! I DUN GIVE A DAMN!

oh ya.. some of my stupid-iest fren say y dun u cry and see??
SHIT U ALL COZ!! I WILL NEVER CRY FOR WATS NOT WORTH FOR! CRYING JUST FOR THE SAKE OF SHOWING SOME PATHETIC FACE TO LOAN ME SOME MONEY TO STUDY?? IS IT WRONG TO JUS MEND THE PROBLEMS AND FIX IT... AND CONTINUE MY LIFE AND LET ME DO WHAT I WANT FOR MY OWN FUTURE!!!!
I AM SO TIRED!!! EVERYTHING MY FAULT!! OK, TRUE IT IS MY FAULT!! I ADMIT!! BUT I DO FIND WAYS TO MEND THINGS!! NOT ONLY I DONT GET SUPPORT BUT.. ALL THOSE RIDICULOUS REASONS AND ANSWER IS SOOOOOO!!! ERGH!!! ACTING LIKE AN ASSHOLE WONT MAKE THINGS RIGHT!

ya.. FAMILY FIRST!! BULLSHIT LAH!!! when i need u all the most where are u?? not only u just giving all those unreasonable bullshit and decide on everything and then wat.. u all cancel it and then give a hit on my head again and giving me another problems?? all i want is just.. loan me the sum of money to pay for my 1st sem and then when 2nd sem comes.. i will pay u back with the loan i m applying now.. wat is so hard?? the most concerned things u worry is that u will not get back ur money?? izit?? y dun i just work my ass off to pay u back?? or i just rob someone to pay u?? or i have to pay u some money as deposit??
my allowance is cut... ok fine cut... but this cut is way too serious for me.. not only make a big big hole in my pocket...and u also give me stupid reason!! sometimes i hate u rarely i love u coz i canot find a reason to love u and reason to hate u... but what i hate the most is that u always blackmail me with MONEY..we do have communication problems but is just that..sigh.. i dun wanna talk anymore la...
but u are the one who makes me realise..
"MONEY IS EVERYTHING"

all the problems that i face now is not from any factors from outside and from anyone else..
the factor of all problems is nowMY FAMILY!! ya!! how proud i m to say this.. but this is my blog!! who cares!! u like u read!! dun like jus press ALT+F4... i canot keep this in my heart any longer.. i will grow old sooooon...
i want to be the AMAZING GRACE i used to be.. if that is what ppl ask what i want.. i want to be ME again.. i am not running away... but everytime i m able to sort things out and get things done.. then another tsunami comes... sigh

for god sake.. i need some time off... doesnt mean that stop everything that i'm doing...
but just let me leave the house for like 2 or 3 days and go somewhere else or someone's house to have a good night sleep and is able to discuss matters peacefully... sort everything out and then only go back... can i??

home=house= palace/hell???
ans: HELL

the bengkak on my head is till there and it hurts.. sigh, damn suea larh... worst sometimes i get headache.. well... let us just sing the beetles songs shall we "LET IT BE"

=(.. i am tired.. i m sad.. i am depressed.. i m so down.. i m confused... and so tulan!!!

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ok....
now i'M having a dilemma...
plz help me by giving me ur comments or idea or just anything that can help me out..

now if u have known that i m currently taking my degree in hict...
but.. in a conditional offer... means i still have to finish my stats... in taylors...
if that is the case.. i have to fly 2 place a week...
which my sis, aunt and parents are seriously objecting it...

and they are suggesting that i finish my stats in taylors sambil take up part time job...

but i feel that it is like a waste of time coz only 2 classes in a week.... and i think of taking both...
havent think of the "worst case scenario" means wat if i got trouble in both... coz they say is very rush.... and of course they also very very very afraid that i cant cope it...HOW!!!!!!!


WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!
PART TIME + STATS...
OR
DEGREE + STATS = KLANG AND SUBANG
OMG!!!!!! =(c

hmmm... now all the unisa students and all my beloved unisa friends..are all in STRESSSSS...
due to the tons of assignments and exams..
so kelian them...
so... maybe this can cheer them up...


james call to make a sentence from 1 till 10..

1 day I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me.. I ran until I fell 6 and threw up. So I go into 7 -eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab at him. 10 God he run away.

then after that.. he did the other wat.. from 10 till 1

10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7-eleven. Next day I called my
boss and told him I was 6 . He said 5 , tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work.
He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand. I am so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1

haahaa!! amazing!!

oh ya, before i forget...
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